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Florence + The Machine – Spectrum (Say My Name)

When we first came here
We were cold and we were clear
With no colors on our skin
We were light and paper-thin
And when we first came here
We were cold and we were clear
With no colors on our skin
Till you let the spectrum in

Say my name,
And every color illuminates,
We are shining,
And we’ll never be afraid again.

Say my name!
As every color illuminates!
We are shining!
And we’ll never be afraid again!
Say my name!
As every color illuminates!
We are shining!
And we’ll never be afraid again!

And when we come for you,
We’ll be dressed up all in blue,
With the ocean in our arms,
Kissing eyes and kissing palms.
And when it’s time to pray,
We’ll be dressed up all in grey,
With metal on our tongues,
And silver in our lungs.

Say my name,
And every color illuminates,
We are shining,
And we’ll never be afraid again.

Say my name!
As every color illuminates!
We are shining!
And we’ll never be afraid again!
Say my name!
As every color illuminates!
We are shining!
And we’ll never be afraid again!

And when we come back we’ll be dressed in black!
And you’ll scream our names aloud!
And we won’t eat and we won’t sleep!
We’ll drag bodies from their graves!
So say my name,
And every color illuminates,
And we are shining,
And we’ll never be afraid again,
Say my name,
As every color illuminates.

Say my name!
As every color illuminates!
We are shining!
And we’ll never be afraid again!
Say my name!
As every color illuminates!
We are shining!
And we’ll never be afraid again!

Say my name!
We are shining!
Say my name!
Say my name!
And we’ll never be afraid again!

The cinematic orchestra – To build a home

I have heard this a while back, in a movie probably, but discovered it again today.. Therefore, I had to ‘save’ it in my music box.

It is simply amazing! Sad, but.. somehow comforting sound..

Hurts – Somebody to Die for

A few years back, I declared that Hurts is a rare for me band.. I heard their ‘Wonderful life’, and that made me curious.. So I heard another song, and then another song… And it turned out that there was not a single song in their ‘Happiness’ album I didn’t love..
They quickly became part of my ‘FAVORITE FOR LIFE’ folder..

A few years back, there was no crazy chic in little town of Herning that would agree to join me in Copenhagen for their concert… No one really knew them that well, they were rather new, and not too popular..

Today, I still love them… Today, Theo and Adam are growing crazy popular, currently touring around the world..
And THIS TIME I am going to see them.

One of their next stops is no other but Hamburg.. 400m away from where I happen to live…

Is that luck or faith?! 🙂 …Doesn’t really matter really.

What matters is that I will finally hear and enjoy them live!
I am so looking forward to that Friday night…. and to Somebody to Die for…:)

I could drag you from the ocean,
I could pull you from the fire
And when you’re standing in the shadows
I could open up the sky
And I could give you my devotion
Until the end of time
And you will never be forgotten
With me by your side

And I don’t need this life
I just need

Somebody to die for
Somebody to cry for
When I’m lonely

I’ve got nothing left to live for
Got no reason yet to die
But when I’m standing in the gallows
I’ll be staring at the sky
Because no matter where they take me
Death I will survive
And I will never be forgotten
With you by my side

Cause I don’t need this life
I just need

Somebody to die for
Somebody to cry for
When I’m lonely

When I’m standing in the fire
I will look him in the eye
And I will let the devil know that
I was brave enough to die
And there’s no hell that he can show me
That’s deeper than my pride
Cause I will never be forgotten
Forever I’ll fight

And I don’t need this life
I just need

Somebody to die for
Somebody to cry for
When I’m lonely

And I don’t need this life
I just need

Somebody to die for
Somebody to cry for
When I’m lonely

Don’t go gentle into that good night
Rage on against the dying light

Florence + The Machine – You’ve got the Love

Lana Del Rey – Ride

Happy New Year! 🙂

Let’s have a fresh start with an inspiring artwork by Lana..

[Music video spoken introduction:]
I was in the winter of my life, and the men I met along the road were my only summer.
At night I fell asleep with visions of myself, dancing and laughing and crying with them.
Three years down the line of being on an endless world tour, and my memories of them were the only things that sustained me, and my only real happy times.
I was a singer – not a very popular one,
I once had a dreams of becoming a beautiful poet, but upon an unfortunate series of events some of those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again, sparkling and broken.
But I didn’t really mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted, and then losing it to know what true freedom is.
When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing, how I’d been living, they asked me why – but there’s no use in talking to people who have home.
They have no idea what it’s like to seek safety in other people – for home to be wherever you lay your head.
I was always an unusual girl.
My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality; just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean…
And if I said I didn’t plan for it to turn out this way I’d be lying…
Because I was born to be the other woman.
I belonged to no one, who belonged to everyone.
Who had nothing, who wanted everything, with a fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn’t even talk about it, and pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzled and dizzied me.

I’ve been out on that open road
You can be my full time, daddy
White and gold
Singing blues has been getting old
You can be my full time, baby
Hot or cold

Don’t break me down
I’ve been travelin’ too long
I’ve been trying too hard
With one pretty song

I hear the birds on the summer breeze, I drive fast
I am alone in the night
Been tryin’ hard not to get into trouble, but I
I’ve got a war in my mind
So, I just ride
Just ride, I just ride, I just ride

Dying young and I’m playing hard
That’s the way my father made his life an art
Drink all day and we talk ’til dark
That’s the way the road dogs do it, ride ’til dark.

Don’t leave me now
Don’t say good bye
Don’t turn around
Leave me high and dry

I hear the birds on the summer breeze, I drive fast
I am alone in the night
Been tryin’ hard not to get into trouble, but I
I’ve got a war in my mind
I just ride
Just ride, I just ride, I just ride

I’m tired of feeling like I’m fucking crazy
I’m tired of driving ’til I see stars in my eyes
It’s all I’ve got to keep myself sane, baby
So I just ride, I just ride

I hear the birds on the summer breeze, I drive fast
I am alone in the night
Been tryin’ hard not to get into trouble, but I
I’ve got a war in my mind
I just ride
Just ride, I just ride, I just ride

[Music video spoken ending:]
Every night I used to pray that I’d find my people, and finally I did on the open road.
We had nothing to lose, nothing to gain, nothing we desired anymore, except to make our lives into a work of art.
Live fast. Die young. Be wild. And have fun.
I believe in the country America used to be.
I believe in the person I want to become.
I believe in the freedom of the open road.
And my motto is the same as ever:
“I believe in the kindness of strangers. And when I’m at war with myself I ride, I just ride.”
Who are you?
Are you in touch with all of your darkest fantasies?
Have you created a life for yourself where you can experience them?
I have. I am fucking crazy.
But I am free.

Club 8 – Love in December

This is my number 1 song in iTunes.. Apparently, I haven’t posted it before, therefore I need to correct the mistake.

Here is number 1..

So this is love
In the end of december
Quiet nights
Quiet stars
And i’m here
Monday to sunday
Cause you’re fragile
And i’m weak

So you fall
When the nights grow longer
Into sleep
And won’t wake up

Don’t you worry
I’ll be there for you
Don’t worry about me
You know me better than that
I’ll catch you if you would fall

So you drift
When the days grow colder
Away from me
And won’t look back
Far away
And i can’t guide you
But i’m here
Til the spring

Don’t you worry
I’ll be there for you
Don’t worry about me
You know me better than that
I’ll catch you if you would fall

Thomas Newman

I like that I am able to see the good things about certain situations…

Recently, I have rediscovered how to enjoy my own company again, to have the time for all the neglected favorite activities and people, to be inspired through good music and express myself in lyrics.. To rediscover all those things I enjoyed while being on my own.

I like that I feel inspired to be present, to be active, to enjoy myself and share favorite music!

A random talk made me remember Thomas Newman and why I’ve had his amazing sounds as essential part of my favorite relaxing playlist.. Once, when I could fall asleep only with relaxing music in my ears, Thomas Newman was my sweet transition to Dreamland..

Thomas Newman was also a name I have searched for, after seeing movies like American Beauty, City of Angels and Meeting Joe Black.. In fact, sounds were a major reason for me to love the movies themselves..

Here is a favorite..

A sweet

Tritonal feat. Christina Soto – Everafter (Original Mix)

The softest trance track I have experienced…

Tritonal, a trance duo from Austin, Texas, has caught my attention! :=) Looking forward to discovering their music…

I used to talk about waking up
Like somehow you still be here only better
The story is ending everafter
We have learned to see each other
To laught when we could cry
Just cry

I didn’t know there was a different kind of life

You are a hardest choice i have to make
Sometimes they wish that i was stronger
Is it can i do it
Will you be here when it’s over
Don’t know, but i will try
Just try

I didn’t know there was a different kind of life

Duran Duran – Ordinary World

Music on VH1 is often a background of my afternoons in Denmark.

It sometimes steals my attention from the numerous online updates with a familiar song or something new that by the very first moments, I know I will love..

Tonight it was Duran Duran and their unforgettable ‘Ordinary world’

Came in from a rainy Thursday
On the avenue
Thought I heard you talking softly

I turned on the lights, the TV
And the radio
Still I can’t escape the ghost of you

What has happened to it all?
Crazy, some are saying
Where is the life that I recognize?
Gone away

But I won’t cry for yesterday
There’s an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Passion or coincidence
Once prompted you to say
“Pride will tear us both apart”
Well now pride’s gone out the window
Cross the rooftops
Run away
Left me in the vacuum of my heart

What is happening to me?
Crazy, some’d say
Where is my friend when I need you most?
Gone away

But I won’t cry for yesterday
There’s an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Papers in the roadside
Tell of suffering and greed
Here today, forgot tomorrow
Ooh, here besides the news
Of holy war and holy need
Ours is just a little sorrowed talk

And I don’t cry for yesterday
There’s an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Every one
Is my world, I will learn to survive
Any one
Is my world, I will learn to survive
Any one
Is my world
Every one
Is my world

Robbie Williams – Eternity

Just remembered this favorite song of mine by Robbie Williams..

When I listened it for the first time.. I listened ‘with my eyes’, as they say. All I could imagine while he was singing (without focusing on understanding it), is them as a passionate couple, that believes their love is eternal..

Robbie Williams – Eternity

Close your eyes so your don’t feel them
They don’t need to see you cry
I can’t promise I will heal you
But if you want to I will try

I’ll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We’ve been betrayed
It’s true
Someone said the truth will out
I believe without a doubt, in you

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity
For eternity

Yesterday when you were walking
We talked about your mum and dad
What they did that made you happy
What they did that made you sad
We sat and watched the sun go down
Picked a star before we lost the moon
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it’s come and gone to soon

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity
For eternity

For eternity
I’ll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We’ve been betrayed
It’s true
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it’s come and gone to soon

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I know you’ll find your freedom
Eventually
For eternity
For eternity

Hurts – Devotion (ft. Kylie Minogue)

Заявих го преди няколко месеца и още стоя зад думите си – Hurst звучат уникално и все още неуморно се наслаждавам на малкото парчета, които имат.

Тази вечер искам да споделя Devotion, мислейки си за любов, за постоянство, за кръстопът, за рискове, за страха от неизвестното и още повече за страха от неизживяното… Но желанието да разбера ‘какво може да бъде’ сякаш винаги надделява над страха от ‘как може да приключи’… И колкото и да се страхувам от бъдещето, от хилядите неща, които могат да се объркат, трябва да опитам!

Защото клишето ‘По-добре да съжалявам за нещо, което съм направила, отколкото за нещо, което не съм’ звучи толкова.. реално…

Hurts – Devotion

Inside the heart of every man
There is a lust you understand
And I’m just the same.

When all the love has gone away
And passion stares me in the face.
Could I walk away?

Here’s hoping
you’ll help me to be brave.

Devotion save me now
I don’t want to stray from the hallowed ground
I’ll turn temptation down.
I’m asking you to take me
to safety
this time.

Forgive my thoughts when I’m asleep
Forgive these words I’m yet to speak
I feel so ashamed.

Right now you seem so far away
So much confusion clouds my way
And I don’t know which path to take.

Here’s hoping
you’ll help me to resist.

Devotion save me now
I don’t wanna stray from the hallowed ground
I’ll turn temptation down.
I’m asking you to take me
to safety
this time.

Devotion, devotion..
I’m a slave unto the mercy of your love
For so long, I’ve been so wrong
I could never live without you.

Devotion, devotion..
Take me to safety

Между другото – Des’ ree – Kissing you

Брат ми се жени утре. Като примерна сестра, аз приех отговорната задача да подбера няколко специални парчета, освен музиката, която the DJ ще е подготвил.

Нека си признаем нещо – музиката по сватбите често не струва! Понякога настръхвам от пълната липса на подбор и оригиналност, поради което много се зарадвах на възложената задача!

Първоначално подходих малко тривиално с теглене на 100 Wedding songs, от които обаче подбрах не повече от 10.. След това ‘прелистих’ личната си колекция от любими парчета. Отделно взех в предвид стила музика, който брат ми и бъдещата му жена определено биха искали да чуят, както и стилове, които знам, че те в никакъв случай не биха искали да чуят 🙂

Така преоткрих много позабравени парчета, една от които между другото искам да споделя в този пост. Никога не съм знаела името на песента и изпълнителката.. но веднага си спомних за филма ‘Ромео и Жулиета’ и безбройните пъти, в които съм плакала на моментите, докато звучи точно тази песен.

Има толкова много други такива любими парчета, които чакат да бъдат преоткрити. Всичко, което ми трябва, е друг случаен повод като този, който да ме отведе до поредното съкровище. Обожавам тези моменти!

Des’ ree – Kissing you

Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you my soul cried
Heaving heart is full of pain
Oh, oh, the aching
Cause, I’m kissing you oh
I’m kissing you oh
Touch me deep, pure and true gift to me forever
Cause, I’m kissing you
Oh, I’m kissing you, oh
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Cause, I’m kissing you
I’m kissing you, oh

Lana Del Ray – Born to die

Lana is actually called Elizabeth. She stroked me with her stylish presence and unique sound, memorable videos and lyrics.

Lana is one of a kind and will certainly enter my ‘Favorites for Life’ folder.

This is the first song I ever heard of hers a few months back, which made me crave for more…

Feet don’t fail me now
Take me to the finish line
All my heart, it breaks every step that I take
But I’m hoping that the gates,
They’ll tell me that you’re mine
Walking through the city streets
Is it by mistake or design?
I feel so alone on a Friday night
Can you make it feel like home, if I tell you you’re mine
It’s like I told you honey

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don’t know why
Keep making me laugh,
Let’s go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words
This is the last time
Cause you and I, we were born to die

Lost but now I am found
I can see but once I was blind
I was so confused as a little child
Tried to take what I could get
Scared that I couldn’t find
All the answers, honey

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don’t know why
Keep making me laugh,
Let’s go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words,
This is the last time
Cause you and I
We were born to die
We were born to die
We were born to die

Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don’t know why
Keep making me laugh,
Let’s go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words
This is the last time
Cause You and I
We were born to die
We were born to die

New Year, New Love

 

Слушам си така любимата Conjure One – Premonition, която все още ми напомня за периода, в който преживявах Адам.

Oнези пролетни месеци във Варна, когато търсех утеха и спасение в нарочно затрупаното ежедневие и вечните партита през нощта.. Сякаш депресията не се усещаше така силно.. А и идеята, че той продължава да ме обича и че има надежда също ме крепеше от изпадане в бездната, където те отвежда осъзнатата жестока истина. Не исках да я призная тогава и ме боля донякъде по-малко заради това.

Нова страница. Clean slate. Истински! Колко пъти съм си казвала, заявявала наляво и надясно и писала тук, че ‘най-после съм преживяла Адам…’. Безброй са. И всичките целяха да убедят преди всичко мен. Толкова неуспешно.

Колкото исках да го забравя и преживея, толкова надеждата ми за събирането ни не ми позволяваше да продължа напред. Толкова силно бе желанието ми и дори нуждата от комуникация с него. В онези моменти по-болезнено за мен беше да се опитам да прекъсна контакт с него, отколкото да се самозаблуждавам, че някой ден пак можем да бъдем заедно. А дълбоко в себе си аз бях наясно, че това никога няма да се случи, но не можех да го призная. Not yet.

Вместо това се успокоявах с приятели, нови запознанства, хубава музика, партита и разкази. Моите разкази на по кафе с приятел за това колко хубаво и перфектно беше. Перфектната връзка. The perfect match. Perfect couple.  Perfect everything.

Всичко е временно, всичко тече и все някога eventually изчезва дори от света на спомените. Колко съм благодарна понякога, че забравям бързо. Забравям, но не преживявам лесно. Повече от 2 години ми отне да се отърся изцяло от него и от идеята за Нас. Перфектните нас. Които никога не сме били.

In the end of the day се оказа, че едно единствено нещо, което можеше и успя да ме накара да забравя един, бе любовта ми към друг. Като the key word is LOVE. Не просто друг мъж, но истинско чувство към него.

Отне време, ужасно много време да си позволя да чувствам отново. Но с месеците малко по малко той превзе сърцето ми. Изчисти го и освободи място за една топлота, която струи толкова силно в момента. И докато пиша това, се страхувам от силата, с която мога да го обичам. Поради което все още леко се ограничавам.

Осъзнах, че го обичам преди два дни. В средата на една жестока кавга. В която не просто бях виновната, но и глупавата. И почти успях да разваля и приключа всичко между нас.

В момента, в който осъзнах, че съм на път да го загубя и то по мое желание, заплаках с все сила и му казах „Не, не искам да те зарежа, напротив, искам те повече от всякога…”.

Това бе моментът, в който най-после се освободих от миналото и заобичах отново. Доста по-плахо и бавно, но най-после отново го усещам. ..Това учестено сърцебиене за някой друг. Прекрасно и толкова плашещо. Но прелъстяващо. Въпрос на време е да надделее над страха и да ме превземе изцяло.

И тогава Бог да ми е на помощ. Защото в любовта си страдам най-силно. Дано само той ми покаже и/или докаже, че я заслужава.

 

My soul is a desert
When nothing is comfort
Sheltered from chaos
And sheltered from you

Can’t feel you anymore
Don’t need you anymore
Don’t believe you anymore
I don’t need you anymore

Enough with temptations
Illusions are evil
We exist in confusion
Soulless and vain

Can’t feel you anymore
Don’t need you anymore
Don’t believe you anymore
I don’t need you anymore

It’s broken me down now
This hurts and it’s hopeless
Can’t look to the future
The window is stained

Can’t feel you anymore
Don’t need you anymore
Don’t believe you anymore
I don’t need you anymore

I don’t need you
anymore, I don’t need
you anymore
I don’t need you
anymore, I don’t need
you anymore

Here’s to fresh starts!

So here I am. Enjoying my home alone night for the first time in a while. Discovering a great new song, again for the first time in quite a while. Regretting I didn’t write and post so many things worth sharing.

As some suggested – the bad went away eventually. And everything got better.

Pure luck is often the reason why best things in life happen. Pure luck and a smile, preferably accompanied by positive thinking. Always. As hard as it might be. Downs in life make that quite harder, but eventually not impossible.

Music was forgotten. Time for being a big girl, doing serious things and working hard in the pursuit of a better life.

Life finally put its pink glasses for me. Hopefully for long this time. I need them so badly. This is why as exhausting as it might be sometimes, I am grateful.

And I start wanting more.  It is true what they say: “The moment you get what you want, you start wanting something else”. The trick is to think big, dream big and enjoy the journey. And try to learn from every experience, no matter good or bad. And to change in the process. Cause change leads to development, they say. I tend to believe that.

Cheers! To fresh starts!

I catch your eyes , try not to smile

I track your style I feel your vibes

We have a drink then go outside

Talk for a while and then we kiss

And then we kiss … (x2)

We play the game we start to move

I feel my heart you feel the bit

I take your hand you turn down slow

We start to feel It’s time … to go.

Tonight moon it will hit the sky

And it’s no surprise we’ll wake up with you

Right I shouldn’t compromise,I don’t have to think twice

What to do …

You got me hypnotized (x3)

So you know what to do

You got me hypnotized (x3)

So you know what to do

So we slide into the night and to the wild open flow

Oh stary eyes you see me glow so will I hide or will I show

You watch me dance I feel you move

You pull me near nothing to fear

We drifted outside, dream aside until we slide into the light

Tonight moon it will hit the sky

And it’s no surprise we’ll wake up with you

Right I shouldn’t compromise I don’t have to think twice

What to do ..

You got me hypnotized x3

So you know what to do

You got me hypnotized (x3)

So you know what to do …

Ups & Downs

This is how I can describe the first month since I am Back. A lot of downs and eventually some jump up, a dive into the good side of life here.

I am sick of it all sometimes. I am sick of all that miserie I have to bear and clean. I am sick of seeing and people trying to exploid others in any way possible. I am sick of those who are so selfish that can’t put themselves into your shoes, despite they were there not long ago.

In one moment I laugh and everything is perfect, and then one word or the lack of it can push me into a dark corner of my mind and keep me there for hours. When being there, feeling pitty for myself, I feel so comforting and safe .

Sometimes I get stuck inthere, and I feel there is no one to drag me out of it. No one really to rely on, to find comfort and a warm hug. No one can fell me, recognize in my look  my fears and worries. I am alone. Among so many people. And that is a sad thought that makes me burst into tears often.

I feel like a lost child in a crowded amuzement park full with screaming kids, annoyed parents and repulsingly looking clowns. It’s dark, and the few blinding lights from the rides are making it hard to find the exit. It’s a mad world. And there is no one who can or want to help. No one who cares. They just smile and pass by. Not their problem after all, right?!

[Chorus – Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
Love the way you lie

[Verse 1 – Eminem]
I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there’s a steel knife in my windpipe
I can’t breathe but I still fight all I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it’s like I’m in flight

High off on love, drunk from my hate
It’s like I’m huffin’ paint and I love it
The more I suffer, I suffocate
Right before I’m about to drown, she resuscitates
Me, she f**kin’ hates me, and I love it, Wait!
Where you going? I’m leaving you.
No you ain’t. Come back. We’re running right back

Here we go again, it’s so insane
Cuz when it’s going good, it’s going great
I’m Superman with the wind in his back
She’s Louis Lane and when its bad, it’s awful
I feel so ashamed, I snap “Who’s that dude?”
I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her, I’ll never stood so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength

[Chorus – Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Verse 2 – Eminem]
You ever love somebody so much,
you could barely breathe when you with ’em?
You meet, and neither one of you even know it hit ’em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah them chills you still get ’em
Now you gettin’ f**kin’ sick of lookin’ at ’em
You swore you’d never hit ’em, never do nothing to hurt ’em
Now you’re in each other’s face spewing venom in your words when you spit ’em
You push, pull each other’s hair, scratch, claw, bit ’em
Throw ’em down, pin ’em, so lost in the moments when you’re in ’em

It’s the rage that took over it controls you both <<
So they say it’s best to go your separate ways
Guess that they don’t know ya cuz today,
That was yesterday, yesterday is over and it’s a different day
Sound like broken records playing over
But you promised her, next time you’d show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no nintendo game, but you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that’s why they call it “window pane”

[Chorus – Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
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I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Verse 3 – Eminem]
Now I know we said things, did things that we didn’t mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routines
But your temper’s just as bad as mine is
You’re the same as me
When it comes to love you’re just as blinded

Baby please come back, it wasn’t you. Baby it was me.
Maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much, to walk away now
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
I told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed, I’ll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time? There won’t be no next time
I apologize, even though I know it’s lies
I’m tired of the games, I just want her back. I know I’m a liar
If she ever tries to f**kin’ leave again,
Ima tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
Just gonna

[Chorus – Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

U2 – With or Without You

A song by U2 from 1987.

Sounds as the mid 90’s to me, but what do I know?! (except the fact that Bono was HoT back then ;))

Enjoy it, one of their greatest songs for sure!

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side.
I wait for you.
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you.

Through the storm, we reach the shore
You gave it all but I want more
And I’m waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you.
I can’t live with or without you.

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give, and you give
And you give yourself away.

My hands are tied, my body bruised
She´s got me with nothing to win
And nothing left to lose.

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give, and you give
And you give yourself away.

With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you.

With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you
With or without you.

Sia – My Love

Early in the morning, late at night, everywhere, any time, this song is with me constantly..

If I don’t listen to it, I sing in my mind. When next track starts, I just press Previous..

Obsessed all over again. Can’t resist it.

I can only wish myself one such song every day and I will be a happy woman!

And when I ask myself if I feel happy now, I feel the urge to scream “YES!” (long-sigh-of-relief ;))

I feel good, insecure, somewhat unprepared, excited, impatient. With a hint for what is about to happen, a memory from what already did and with the desire for more , I wait to see what tomorrow will bring.

I’ve always liked the idea of the American proverb “Today is the first day of the rest of your life“. Starting – next Monday!

Am I ready for it?! Most probably not. Will I enjoy every second of it? You can bet I will!

Especially with such good music in the background.

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, you have found peace
You were searching for release

You gave it all, into the call
You took a chance and
You took a fall for us

You came thoughtfully, loved me faithfully
You taught me honor, you did it for me

Tonight you will sleep for good
You will wait for me my love

Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, look what you can do
I am mending, I’ll be with you

You took my hand added a plan
You gave me your heart
I asked you to dance with me

You loved honestly
Did what you could release
Aaaahhh oooh

I know you’re pleased to go
I won’t relieve this love

Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, I’ll be with you
oooooohh ooooh
Du du du ooooooh

Back, but not for too long & Sparklehorse – Sea of Teeth

В България съм отново, във ваканция след успешно взети изпити. Не бях писала скоро в Отдушника си и тази вечер нахвърлях някакви неща, които ми се въртят в главата тези дни. Иска ми се да ги споделя и тук…

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И ето ме от България, седнала на земята, както обичам да правя, с лаптоп на леглото, възглавница в скута и като background – току що изтегления саундтрак на филма, който гледах досега – Remember me с Робърт Патисън.

Не знам какво да пиша. Изпитите минаха, имам 7, 12, 7. Прибрах се успешно, майка се опита да поплаче на летището, но аз я разсеях и прекъснах с ‘Хайде стига, къде са ми черешите?! 😉

Още на следващия ден изфучахме от вкъщи рано рано по задачи и срещи с приятели.

Още от първия ден искам да се върна обратно…. не ми се остава тук.

Искам Mr. X, искам си работата в клуба, искам си квартирата в Бирк, всичко си искам…

И толкова дълго време ще остана тук, че се опасявам, че отново ще свикна и накрая няма да ми се прибира…;(

Онзи ден Mr. X ми прати мейл във фейсбук, отговорих му, а после си говорихме в скайп. Разни дългосрочни планове се въртят в тази моя главица, а съм си обещала такива неща повече не! В някои отношения е по-добре да се оставиш на течението, а не да предвиждаш и плануваш всеки следващ миг.

И колкото и да ми говори Mr. X как иска да пътуваме някъде през ваканцията след първия семестър (януари 2011?!), аз толкова далеч в бъдещето отказвам да гледам!

И се наслаждавам на моментите сега. Жалко, че него го няма в тях.

Което ми напомня, че трябва да му направя клипче с гледката от прозореца ми. Продължавам да се удивявам на кофти пътищата, сгради, въобще типична българска градска среда (как бързо се отвиква….) и само се подсмихвам и си мисля как на всеки ъгъл той би казал нещо от сорта на „This is so illegal”…

Мисля си как нямаме бъдеще с него и се чудя понякога, гледайки отстрани на всичко – защо продължавам да съм с него, при пложение, че “трябва да търся нещо сериозно…” както му е казвано напоследък.

Но след такъв филм, в който героят живееше за мига, безотговорно, правеше всичко, без да мисли какви последствия ще има за бъдещето му и накрая умря в една от кулите близнаци на 11.09.2001, всичко изглежда някак безсмислено. Това ‘търсене на нещо сериозно’ приемам по-скоро като пропиляно време, в което съм можела да правя това, което искам, а не това което се очаква.

Затова сега ще се наслаждавам на всяка секунда тук, сама в Бг, и после, евентуално с Mr.  X в Дания. Ако не с него, дори и сама, ще живея за мига, ще се радвам на всичко, от което повечето се оплакват.

Ще се смея, ще плача, ще припадам от смях, ще лудувам, ще сияя с усмивката си, ще се радвам на рядко появяващото се слънце в Дания, ще правя всичко всичко, докато мога

Следващата песен от саундртака започна с думите ‘Can you feel the wind…’

Искам да усещам вятъра и да затварям очи всеки път, когато съм навън, да чувствам всяка секунда като нещо специално, защото е!

Искам да вдишвам живот и да издишвам щастие и задоволство. От вятъра, от живота, от студа, от жегата, от слънцето, от морето, от бриза на брега, от музиката в ушите ми.

Искам да съм постоянно обградена от стойностна, наелектрезирваща музика, която да ме кара да казвам и пиша неща в моменти, в които нямам какво да кажа. Като сега.”

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Ето я и песента, която споменах по-горе…

Can you feel the wind of venus on your skin?

Can you taste the crush of a sunset’s dying blush?

Stars will always hand in summer’s bleeding veils

Can you feel the rings of saturn on your finger?

Can you taste the ghosts who shed their creaking hosts?

But seas forever boil, trees will turn to soil

Stars will always hand in summer’s bleeding veils

But seas forever boil, trees will turn to soil

Jay-Z feat. Alicia Keys – Empire State of Mind

Great hit! Love it! But what’s with the strange pose of Alicia Keys while playing the piano?!

Yeah
Yeah I’m out that Brooklyn, now I’m down in Tribeca
Right next to Deniro, but I’ll be hood forever
I’m the new Sinatra, and since I made it here
I can make it anywhere, yeah they love me everywhere
I used to cop in Harlem, all of my Dominicano’s
Right there up on Broadway, pull me back to that McDonald’s
Took it to my stashbox, 560 State Strett
Catch me in the kitchen like a Simmons with them pastries
Cruisin’ down 8th Street, off white Lexus
Drivin’ so slow, but BK is from Texas
Me, I’m out that Bed-Stuy, home of that boy Biggie
Now I live on billboard and I brought my boys with me
Say whatup to Ty-Ty, still sippin’ mai tai’s
Sittin’ courtside, Knicks & Nets give me high five
Nigga I be Spike’d out, I could trip a referee
Tell by my attitude that I’m most definitely from…

New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There’s nothin’ you can’t do
Now you’re in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let’s hear it for New York, New York,
New York

Catch me at the X with OG at a Yankee game
Shit, I made the Yankee hat more famous then a Yankee can
You should know I bleed blue, but I ain’t a Crip though
But I got a gang of Niggas walkin’ with my clique though
Welcome to the melting pot, corners where we sellin’ rock
Africa Bambata shit, home of the hip-hop
Yellow cab, gypsy cab, dollar cab, holla back
For foreigners it ain’t for they act like they forgot how to act
Eight million stories, out there in it naked
City is a pity, half of y’all won’t make it
Me, I got a plug, Special Ed “I Got It Made”
If Jesus payin’ Lebron, I’m payin’ Dwayne Wade
Three dice cee-lo, three card molly
Labour Day Parade, rest in peace Bob Marley
Statue of Liberty, long live the World Trade
Long live the Kingdome, I’m from the Empire St. that’s

New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There’s nothin’ you can’t do
Now you’re in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let’s hear it for New York, New York,
New York

Lights is blinding, girls need blinders
So they can step out of bounds quick
The sidelines is, lined with casualties, who sip to life casually
Then gradually become worse, don’t bite the apple leaf
Caught up in the in-crowd, now you’re in style
End of the winter gets cold, en vogue, with your skin out
City of sin, it’s a pity on the wind
Good girls gone bad, the city’s filled with them
Mommy took a bus trip, now she got her bust out
Everybody ride her, just like a bus route
Hail Mary to the city, you’re a virgin
And Jesus can’t save you, life starts when the church end
Came here for school, graduated to the high life
Ball players, rap stars, addicted to the limelight
MDMA got you feelin’ like a champion
The city never sleeps, better slip you an Ambien

New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There’s nothin’ you can’t do
Now you’re in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let’s hear it for New York, New York,
New York

One hand in the air for the big city
Streetlights, big dreams, all lookin’ pretty
No place in the world that could compare
Put your lighters in the air
Everybody say “Yeah, Yeah. Yeah, Yeah”

New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There’s nothin’ you can’t do
Now you’re in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let’s hear it for New York, New York,
New York