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Hurts – Somebody to Die for

A few years back, I declared that Hurts is a rare for me band.. I heard their ‘Wonderful life’, and that made me curious.. So I heard another song, and then another song… And it turned out that there was not a single song in their ‘Happiness’ album I didn’t love..
They quickly became part of my ‘FAVORITE FOR LIFE’ folder..

A few years back, there was no crazy chic in little town of Herning that would agree to join me in Copenhagen for their concert… No one really knew them that well, they were rather new, and not too popular..

Today, I still love them… Today, Theo and Adam are growing crazy popular, currently touring around the world..
And THIS TIME I am going to see them.

One of their next stops is no other but Hamburg.. 400m away from where I happen to live…

Is that luck or faith?! 🙂 …Doesn’t really matter really.

What matters is that I will finally hear and enjoy them live!
I am so looking forward to that Friday night…. and to Somebody to Die for…:)

I could drag you from the ocean,
I could pull you from the fire
And when you’re standing in the shadows
I could open up the sky
And I could give you my devotion
Until the end of time
And you will never be forgotten
With me by your side

And I don’t need this life
I just need

Somebody to die for
Somebody to cry for
When I’m lonely

I’ve got nothing left to live for
Got no reason yet to die
But when I’m standing in the gallows
I’ll be staring at the sky
Because no matter where they take me
Death I will survive
And I will never be forgotten
With you by my side

Cause I don’t need this life
I just need

Somebody to die for
Somebody to cry for
When I’m lonely

When I’m standing in the fire
I will look him in the eye
And I will let the devil know that
I was brave enough to die
And there’s no hell that he can show me
That’s deeper than my pride
Cause I will never be forgotten
Forever I’ll fight

And I don’t need this life
I just need

Somebody to die for
Somebody to cry for
When I’m lonely

And I don’t need this life
I just need

Somebody to die for
Somebody to cry for
When I’m lonely

Don’t go gentle into that good night
Rage on against the dying light

Thomas Newman

I like that I am able to see the good things about certain situations…

Recently, I have rediscovered how to enjoy my own company again, to have the time for all the neglected favorite activities and people, to be inspired through good music and express myself in lyrics.. To rediscover all those things I enjoyed while being on my own.

I like that I feel inspired to be present, to be active, to enjoy myself and share favorite music!

A random talk made me remember Thomas Newman and why I’ve had his amazing sounds as essential part of my favorite relaxing playlist.. Once, when I could fall asleep only with relaxing music in my ears, Thomas Newman was my sweet transition to Dreamland..

Thomas Newman was also a name I have searched for, after seeing movies like American Beauty, City of Angels and Meeting Joe Black.. In fact, sounds were a major reason for me to love the movies themselves..

Here is a favorite..

A sweet

Hurts – Devotion (ft. Kylie Minogue)

Заявих го преди няколко месеца и още стоя зад думите си – Hurst звучат уникално и все още неуморно се наслаждавам на малкото парчета, които имат.

Тази вечер искам да споделя Devotion, мислейки си за любов, за постоянство, за кръстопът, за рискове, за страха от неизвестното и още повече за страха от неизживяното… Но желанието да разбера ‘какво може да бъде’ сякаш винаги надделява над страха от ‘как може да приключи’… И колкото и да се страхувам от бъдещето, от хилядите неща, които могат да се объркат, трябва да опитам!

Защото клишето ‘По-добре да съжалявам за нещо, което съм направила, отколкото за нещо, което не съм’ звучи толкова.. реално…

Hurts – Devotion

Inside the heart of every man
There is a lust you understand
And I’m just the same.

When all the love has gone away
And passion stares me in the face.
Could I walk away?

Here’s hoping
you’ll help me to be brave.

Devotion save me now
I don’t want to stray from the hallowed ground
I’ll turn temptation down.
I’m asking you to take me
to safety
this time.

Forgive my thoughts when I’m asleep
Forgive these words I’m yet to speak
I feel so ashamed.

Right now you seem so far away
So much confusion clouds my way
And I don’t know which path to take.

Here’s hoping
you’ll help me to resist.

Devotion save me now
I don’t wanna stray from the hallowed ground
I’ll turn temptation down.
I’m asking you to take me
to safety
this time.

Devotion, devotion..
I’m a slave unto the mercy of your love
For so long, I’ve been so wrong
I could never live without you.

Devotion, devotion..
Take me to safety

I am back

Постоянство. Винаги ми е липсвало.

Мисля, че с бързо ‘прелистване’ на блога, лесно може да се забележи.
Има известна периодичност. Преди се оправдавах с факта, че нямам муза в определени моменти. После дойде работата, учението, гаджето, забързания живот и с него хилядите оправдания, в които съм се усъвършенствала толкова много.

След месеци мълчание, днес отворих блога си. Първо бях изненадана от факта, че все още имам валидна регистрация. Не бях толкова изненадана, че за момент си забравих паролата. Минута по-късно бях почти шокирана от факта, че някои дни са доста силни откъм читателски интерес, при все че масата от статии нямат текст (ако не броим lyrics).

След това се зачетох. Усмихвах се на позапрашелите спомени, усещането за промяна в мен, коео вярвам, че е винаги за по-добро.

И си спомних защо толкова много обичам тази малка моя музикална кутийка.

Събрала е купища ценна музика и безброй емоции, спомени за това кога, как и поради каква причина съм писала. Кара ме да си спомням какво е било тогава и как съм стигнала до тук.

Това е не просто блог пълен с любимите ми парчета, това е кутия със спомени, които от малка винаги съм искала да имам.

Иска ми се да продължа да го правя. Да преотривам себе си, докато пиша, да събирам като стари марки в книга всички любими за момента артисти и албуми, да размишлявам, да дълбая, да бъда сама със себе си.

Липсва ми. Затова съм тук и пиша отново. За свое собствено удовослтвие. За да виждам промяната. За да запазя спомените. За да бъда себе си.

Разбира се, новото начало изисква свежа музика. Hurts… основана не много отдавна, тази английска група ме завладя толкова бързо, лесно и силно, че потрепервам всеки път, когато си пусна нещо тяхно.

Обичам да вярвам на усещанията си. Откакто чух Hurts за първи път, знам, че ще съм техен фен до живот. Твърде силно е, за да го пренебрегна и да го отдам на това, че са нови, свежи и каквото и да е. Просто го знам!

Реших да започна с Evelyn..

New Year, New Love

 

Слушам си така любимата Conjure One – Premonition, която все още ми напомня за периода, в който преживявах Адам.

Oнези пролетни месеци във Варна, когато търсех утеха и спасение в нарочно затрупаното ежедневие и вечните партита през нощта.. Сякаш депресията не се усещаше така силно.. А и идеята, че той продължава да ме обича и че има надежда също ме крепеше от изпадане в бездната, където те отвежда осъзнатата жестока истина. Не исках да я призная тогава и ме боля донякъде по-малко заради това.

Нова страница. Clean slate. Истински! Колко пъти съм си казвала, заявявала наляво и надясно и писала тук, че ‘най-после съм преживяла Адам…’. Безброй са. И всичките целяха да убедят преди всичко мен. Толкова неуспешно.

Колкото исках да го забравя и преживея, толкова надеждата ми за събирането ни не ми позволяваше да продължа напред. Толкова силно бе желанието ми и дори нуждата от комуникация с него. В онези моменти по-болезнено за мен беше да се опитам да прекъсна контакт с него, отколкото да се самозаблуждавам, че някой ден пак можем да бъдем заедно. А дълбоко в себе си аз бях наясно, че това никога няма да се случи, но не можех да го призная. Not yet.

Вместо това се успокоявах с приятели, нови запознанства, хубава музика, партита и разкази. Моите разкази на по кафе с приятел за това колко хубаво и перфектно беше. Перфектната връзка. The perfect match. Perfect couple.  Perfect everything.

Всичко е временно, всичко тече и все някога eventually изчезва дори от света на спомените. Колко съм благодарна понякога, че забравям бързо. Забравям, но не преживявам лесно. Повече от 2 години ми отне да се отърся изцяло от него и от идеята за Нас. Перфектните нас. Които никога не сме били.

In the end of the day се оказа, че едно единствено нещо, което можеше и успя да ме накара да забравя един, бе любовта ми към друг. Като the key word is LOVE. Не просто друг мъж, но истинско чувство към него.

Отне време, ужасно много време да си позволя да чувствам отново. Но с месеците малко по малко той превзе сърцето ми. Изчисти го и освободи място за една топлота, която струи толкова силно в момента. И докато пиша това, се страхувам от силата, с която мога да го обичам. Поради което все още леко се ограничавам.

Осъзнах, че го обичам преди два дни. В средата на една жестока кавга. В която не просто бях виновната, но и глупавата. И почти успях да разваля и приключа всичко между нас.

В момента, в който осъзнах, че съм на път да го загубя и то по мое желание, заплаках с все сила и му казах „Не, не искам да те зарежа, напротив, искам те повече от всякога…”.

Това бе моментът, в който най-после се освободих от миналото и заобичах отново. Доста по-плахо и бавно, но най-после отново го усещам. ..Това учестено сърцебиене за някой друг. Прекрасно и толкова плашещо. Но прелъстяващо. Въпрос на време е да надделее над страха и да ме превземе изцяло.

И тогава Бог да ми е на помощ. Защото в любовта си страдам най-силно. Дано само той ми покаже и/или докаже, че я заслужава.

 

My soul is a desert
When nothing is comfort
Sheltered from chaos
And sheltered from you

Can’t feel you anymore
Don’t need you anymore
Don’t believe you anymore
I don’t need you anymore

Enough with temptations
Illusions are evil
We exist in confusion
Soulless and vain

Can’t feel you anymore
Don’t need you anymore
Don’t believe you anymore
I don’t need you anymore

It’s broken me down now
This hurts and it’s hopeless
Can’t look to the future
The window is stained

Can’t feel you anymore
Don’t need you anymore
Don’t believe you anymore
I don’t need you anymore

I don’t need you
anymore, I don’t need
you anymore
I don’t need you
anymore, I don’t need
you anymore

Here’s to fresh starts!

So here I am. Enjoying my home alone night for the first time in a while. Discovering a great new song, again for the first time in quite a while. Regretting I didn’t write and post so many things worth sharing.

As some suggested – the bad went away eventually. And everything got better.

Pure luck is often the reason why best things in life happen. Pure luck and a smile, preferably accompanied by positive thinking. Always. As hard as it might be. Downs in life make that quite harder, but eventually not impossible.

Music was forgotten. Time for being a big girl, doing serious things and working hard in the pursuit of a better life.

Life finally put its pink glasses for me. Hopefully for long this time. I need them so badly. This is why as exhausting as it might be sometimes, I am grateful.

And I start wanting more.  It is true what they say: “The moment you get what you want, you start wanting something else”. The trick is to think big, dream big and enjoy the journey. And try to learn from every experience, no matter good or bad. And to change in the process. Cause change leads to development, they say. I tend to believe that.

Cheers! To fresh starts!

I catch your eyes , try not to smile

I track your style I feel your vibes

We have a drink then go outside

Talk for a while and then we kiss

And then we kiss … (x2)

We play the game we start to move

I feel my heart you feel the bit

I take your hand you turn down slow

We start to feel It’s time … to go.

Tonight moon it will hit the sky

And it’s no surprise we’ll wake up with you

Right I shouldn’t compromise,I don’t have to think twice

What to do …

You got me hypnotized (x3)

So you know what to do

You got me hypnotized (x3)

So you know what to do

So we slide into the night and to the wild open flow

Oh stary eyes you see me glow so will I hide or will I show

You watch me dance I feel you move

You pull me near nothing to fear

We drifted outside, dream aside until we slide into the light

Tonight moon it will hit the sky

And it’s no surprise we’ll wake up with you

Right I shouldn’t compromise I don’t have to think twice

What to do ..

You got me hypnotized x3

So you know what to do

You got me hypnotized (x3)

So you know what to do …

Ups & Downs

This is how I can describe the first month since I am Back. A lot of downs and eventually some jump up, a dive into the good side of life here.

I am sick of it all sometimes. I am sick of all that miserie I have to bear and clean. I am sick of seeing and people trying to exploid others in any way possible. I am sick of those who are so selfish that can’t put themselves into your shoes, despite they were there not long ago.

In one moment I laugh and everything is perfect, and then one word or the lack of it can push me into a dark corner of my mind and keep me there for hours. When being there, feeling pitty for myself, I feel so comforting and safe .

Sometimes I get stuck inthere, and I feel there is no one to drag me out of it. No one really to rely on, to find comfort and a warm hug. No one can fell me, recognize in my look  my fears and worries. I am alone. Among so many people. And that is a sad thought that makes me burst into tears often.

I feel like a lost child in a crowded amuzement park full with screaming kids, annoyed parents and repulsingly looking clowns. It’s dark, and the few blinding lights from the rides are making it hard to find the exit. It’s a mad world. And there is no one who can or want to help. No one who cares. They just smile and pass by. Not their problem after all, right?!

[Chorus – Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
Love the way you lie

[Verse 1 – Eminem]
I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there’s a steel knife in my windpipe
I can’t breathe but I still fight all I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it’s like I’m in flight

High off on love, drunk from my hate
It’s like I’m huffin’ paint and I love it
The more I suffer, I suffocate
Right before I’m about to drown, she resuscitates
Me, she f**kin’ hates me, and I love it, Wait!
Where you going? I’m leaving you.
No you ain’t. Come back. We’re running right back

Here we go again, it’s so insane
Cuz when it’s going good, it’s going great
I’m Superman with the wind in his back
She’s Louis Lane and when its bad, it’s awful
I feel so ashamed, I snap “Who’s that dude?”
I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her, I’ll never stood so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength

[Chorus – Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Verse 2 – Eminem]
You ever love somebody so much,
you could barely breathe when you with ’em?
You meet, and neither one of you even know it hit ’em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah them chills you still get ’em
Now you gettin’ f**kin’ sick of lookin’ at ’em
You swore you’d never hit ’em, never do nothing to hurt ’em
Now you’re in each other’s face spewing venom in your words when you spit ’em
You push, pull each other’s hair, scratch, claw, bit ’em
Throw ’em down, pin ’em, so lost in the moments when you’re in ’em

It’s the rage that took over it controls you both <<
So they say it’s best to go your separate ways
Guess that they don’t know ya cuz today,
That was yesterday, yesterday is over and it’s a different day
Sound like broken records playing over
But you promised her, next time you’d show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no nintendo game, but you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that’s why they call it “window pane”

[Chorus – Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
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I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Verse 3 – Eminem]
Now I know we said things, did things that we didn’t mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routines
But your temper’s just as bad as mine is
You’re the same as me
When it comes to love you’re just as blinded

Baby please come back, it wasn’t you. Baby it was me.
Maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much, to walk away now
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
I told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed, I’ll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time? There won’t be no next time
I apologize, even though I know it’s lies
I’m tired of the games, I just want her back. I know I’m a liar
If she ever tries to f**kin’ leave again,
Ima tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
Just gonna

[Chorus – Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Sia – My Love

Early in the morning, late at night, everywhere, any time, this song is with me constantly..

If I don’t listen to it, I sing in my mind. When next track starts, I just press Previous..

Obsessed all over again. Can’t resist it.

I can only wish myself one such song every day and I will be a happy woman!

And when I ask myself if I feel happy now, I feel the urge to scream “YES!” (long-sigh-of-relief ;))

I feel good, insecure, somewhat unprepared, excited, impatient. With a hint for what is about to happen, a memory from what already did and with the desire for more , I wait to see what tomorrow will bring.

I’ve always liked the idea of the American proverb “Today is the first day of the rest of your life“. Starting – next Monday!

Am I ready for it?! Most probably not. Will I enjoy every second of it? You can bet I will!

Especially with such good music in the background.

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, you have found peace
You were searching for release

You gave it all, into the call
You took a chance and
You took a fall for us

You came thoughtfully, loved me faithfully
You taught me honor, you did it for me

Tonight you will sleep for good
You will wait for me my love

Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, look what you can do
I am mending, I’ll be with you

You took my hand added a plan
You gave me your heart
I asked you to dance with me

You loved honestly
Did what you could release
Aaaahhh oooh

I know you’re pleased to go
I won’t relieve this love

Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, I’ll be with you
oooooohh ooooh
Du du du ooooooh

Back, but not for too long & Sparklehorse – Sea of Teeth

В България съм отново, във ваканция след успешно взети изпити. Не бях писала скоро в Отдушника си и тази вечер нахвърлях някакви неща, които ми се въртят в главата тези дни. Иска ми се да ги споделя и тук…

“06.07.2010

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И ето ме от България, седнала на земята, както обичам да правя, с лаптоп на леглото, възглавница в скута и като background – току що изтегления саундтрак на филма, който гледах досега – Remember me с Робърт Патисън.

Не знам какво да пиша. Изпитите минаха, имам 7, 12, 7. Прибрах се успешно, майка се опита да поплаче на летището, но аз я разсеях и прекъснах с ‘Хайде стига, къде са ми черешите?! 😉

Още на следващия ден изфучахме от вкъщи рано рано по задачи и срещи с приятели.

Още от първия ден искам да се върна обратно…. не ми се остава тук.

Искам Mr. X, искам си работата в клуба, искам си квартирата в Бирк, всичко си искам…

И толкова дълго време ще остана тук, че се опасявам, че отново ще свикна и накрая няма да ми се прибира…;(

Онзи ден Mr. X ми прати мейл във фейсбук, отговорих му, а после си говорихме в скайп. Разни дългосрочни планове се въртят в тази моя главица, а съм си обещала такива неща повече не! В някои отношения е по-добре да се оставиш на течението, а не да предвиждаш и плануваш всеки следващ миг.

И колкото и да ми говори Mr. X как иска да пътуваме някъде през ваканцията след първия семестър (януари 2011?!), аз толкова далеч в бъдещето отказвам да гледам!

И се наслаждавам на моментите сега. Жалко, че него го няма в тях.

Което ми напомня, че трябва да му направя клипче с гледката от прозореца ми. Продължавам да се удивявам на кофти пътищата, сгради, въобще типична българска градска среда (как бързо се отвиква….) и само се подсмихвам и си мисля как на всеки ъгъл той би казал нещо от сорта на „This is so illegal”…

Мисля си как нямаме бъдеще с него и се чудя понякога, гледайки отстрани на всичко – защо продължавам да съм с него, при пложение, че “трябва да търся нещо сериозно…” както му е казвано напоследък.

Но след такъв филм, в който героят живееше за мига, безотговорно, правеше всичко, без да мисли какви последствия ще има за бъдещето му и накрая умря в една от кулите близнаци на 11.09.2001, всичко изглежда някак безсмислено. Това ‘търсене на нещо сериозно’ приемам по-скоро като пропиляно време, в което съм можела да правя това, което искам, а не това което се очаква.

Затова сега ще се наслаждавам на всяка секунда тук, сама в Бг, и после, евентуално с Mr.  X в Дания. Ако не с него, дори и сама, ще живея за мига, ще се радвам на всичко, от което повечето се оплакват.

Ще се смея, ще плача, ще припадам от смях, ще лудувам, ще сияя с усмивката си, ще се радвам на рядко появяващото се слънце в Дания, ще правя всичко всичко, докато мога

Следващата песен от саундртака започна с думите ‘Can you feel the wind…’

Искам да усещам вятъра и да затварям очи всеки път, когато съм навън, да чувствам всяка секунда като нещо специално, защото е!

Искам да вдишвам живот и да издишвам щастие и задоволство. От вятъра, от живота, от студа, от жегата, от слънцето, от морето, от бриза на брега, от музиката в ушите ми.

Искам да съм постоянно обградена от стойностна, наелектрезирваща музика, която да ме кара да казвам и пиша неща в моменти, в които нямам какво да кажа. Като сега.”

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Ето я и песента, която споменах по-горе…

Can you feel the wind of venus on your skin?

Can you taste the crush of a sunset’s dying blush?

Stars will always hand in summer’s bleeding veils

Can you feel the rings of saturn on your finger?

Can you taste the ghosts who shed their creaking hosts?

But seas forever boil, trees will turn to soil

Stars will always hand in summer’s bleeding veils

But seas forever boil, trees will turn to soil

My Lucky Number 7 [EN]

After being dared by my favorite Morko in a post of his, I decided to prove once again that I have an excellent music taste.

I will do that by creating a special list putting a lot of efforts and a spoon of good memories in its creation. An extraordinary and precious list containing the seven albums I would take on a desert island with me

it is important to keep in mind that you should not just include your favorites for the moment, but music that has passed the test of time and that you could listen to for at least another 10 years…

Now that is what I call a ‘tough job‘.. so many great artists, albums and song.. How the hell can I restrict myself to only 7 albums?! Only if they were albums which I created myself during the years, playlists from my MP3-Player or some total favorites for life… But No, rules are rules, have to be followed..

It was still a great pleasure and even an honor to select My Lucky Number 7.. I made that choice rather quickly, without having second thoughts or reconsidering my choice. Who knows, that may lead to some corrections in time..:)

(That was what I wrote more than 2 years ago, but now when I decided to translate the article, I still feel the same way, just can add some extra albums like most by Coldplay, Greg Laswell etc., but definitely cannot remove anyone of those stated beneath…;))

So here they are – My Top 7 Albums, which I would take with me on a desert island, my 7 little music treasures:

1) Madonna – Ray of light

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All the best by Madonna gathered in one – this is what this album represents for me.. I cannot chose one single song that I favorite the most.. Ray of Light, Nothing Really Matters, The Power of Good-bye, Drowned world (Substitute for love), Frozen, Candy Perfumed girl, Little star, Mer Girl…. simply Madonna ..

2) Ace of base – The Bridge

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Ever since I was a short, skinny, approximately 10-years-old girl, I was singing their song all the time in my room, knowing by heart every single one from this album. I had and played that tape millions of times, with and without any special reason. I was so obsessed, that I put a poster of the album cover on my door… I was so crazy about them.. 😉

  1. Beautiful Life
  2. Never Gonna Say I’m Sorry
  3. Lucky Love (Original Version)
  4. Edge of Heaven
  5. Strange Ways
  6. Ravine
  7. Perfect World
  8. Angel Eyes
  9. Whispers In Blindness
  10. My Déjà Vu
  11. You and I
  12. Wave Wet Sand
  13. Que Sera
  14. Just ‘N’ Image
  15. Lucky Love (Acoustic Version)”
  16. Experience Pearls
  17. Blooming 18

3) Chicane – Behind the Sun

When I was younger, back at the time when I still didn’t have my favorite MP3-Player (which I feel naked without right now), I was playing Chicane on my stereo and was falling asleep under the sounds of Offshore and Saltwater now those were some sweet dreams :))

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4) Madonna – Music

A little more different sound by Madonna. My favorites are What it feels like for a girl, Beautiful Stranger, American Pie, Music and Don’t tell Me.

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5) City of Angels OST

I downloaded the soundtrack of the ‘City of Angels’ movie after watching it for dozen times and they all immediately became unbreakable part of my MP3-Player and of my Total Favorites for Life Folder… Those are Alanis Morisette – Uninvited, Goo Goo Dolls – Iris, U2 – If God Will Send His Angels, Sarah McLachlan – Angel, Paula Cole – Feelin’ Love. I also have to mention Gabriel Yared, who has 4 unforgettable tracks in it…

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6) Cafe del Mar Vol.5 (1998)

I was hesitating between few volumes of Cafe del mar, but Vol.5 from ’98 is definitely outstanding among all with its obvious uniqueness and different sound. Attention deserve most tracks like Mumbai Theme Tune, More Than Ever People, Appreciation (Radio Mix), Tout Est Bleu (Original Ame Strong S.A. Remix), Talking With Myself ’98 (Canny Remix) !!! and most of all Close Cover by Wim Mertens!

Simply Inspiring!

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7) Enigma – Love Sensuality Devotion – Greatest Hits

Last but not least, this album by my favorite Enigma I will leave without a comment, because I had already said what it means to me in another article (only in BG unfortunately).

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Mew – Comforting Sounds

С тази песен и всичко, с което я свързвам започва истинското ново начало при мен. Този fresh start, за който нямах смелостта, волята и дори желанието допреди известно време…настъпи. И ме кара да се чувствам толкова дяволски добре, толкова спокойна, уверена, на мястото си… (тук последва една дълга облекчаваща въздишка :))

Готова съм отново да бъда щастлива! И да следвам този любим цитат от един тотален мой фаворит, който май ми е станал нещо като мото:

“Do the things that you always wanted to… Don’t think, Just DO!”

I don’t feel alright in spite of these comforting sounds you make.
I don’t feel alright because you make promises that you break.
Into your house, why don’t we share our solitude?
Nothing is pure anymore but solitude.
It’s hard to make sense, feels as if I’m sensing you through a lens.
If someone else comes, I’d just sit here listening to the drums.
Previously I never called it solitude.
And probably you know all the dirty shows I’ve put on.
Blunted and exhausted like anyone.
Honestly I tried to avoid it.
Honestly.
Back when we were kids, we would always know when to stop.
And now all the good kids are messing up.
Nobody has gained or accomplished anything

My Top 10 Albums and Songs for 2009 [EN]

It is time to draw the line.

I was searching around my music archives and I was listening to old, new, total hits, favorite collections, unique singles and there it is – my rating for Top albums and songs for 2009 is ready.

2009 was the year of Rediscovering of genres. The first one was salsa as music and dance. Afterwords – Jazz and the unforgettable voice of Stacey Kent, as well as my favorite one – Girl from Ipanema which you can find performed by numerous artists.

2009 was the year of male vocals. The year I fall in love with alternative rock, with Cris Martin and Coldplay, with Greg Laswell, Depeche Mode, Snow Patrol, The Fray and so many others I’ve published during the year.

A lot of total hits I discovered among soundtracks of some American serial movies. Others – from randomly downloaded albums, thirds – from friends who were kind enough to give me folders with tons of stuff to listen to and select of…

2009 was the year of many unique tracks. It was as well the year of ‘junk’ music. I am soon planning to write a post about ‘The worst most hideous and commercial songs ever‘ ..

In 2009 I realized that my ears are like ‘perforated‘ and for some time I feel a terrible irritation and intolerance and I am simply unable to listen to some tracks, performers and music styles…

In 2009 I didn’t manage to listen to classical music, but my appetite for new musical experiences is infinite, so … 2010 is ahead of me :).

So there it is..
My Top 10 Albums and Songs for 2009 are:

ALBUMS:

1. Coldplay – Prospekt’s March (2008)

2. Coldplay – A Rush of Blood To The Head

3. Conjure one – Conjure One (2002)

4. Greg Laswell – Three Flights From Alto Nido

5. Angels Chill Trance Essentials – Vol.1, Vol.2 & Vol.3

6. Enigma – Love Sensuality Devotion: The Greatest Hits

7. Lady Gaga – The fame monster (2009)

8. Tiesto – Gold Remixes (2008)

9. Miro – Omirotvoren (2009)

10. Madonna – Ray Of Light (1998)


SINGLES/SONGS:

1. Depeche Mode – Freelove

2. Seal – Crazy

3. Roxette – I wish I could fly

4. The Fray – How to save a life

5. Snow Patrol – Chasing Cars

6. Various Artists – Perfect Day

7. Kings Of Leon – Use Somebody (Pete Tong & Roger Wonderland Mix)

8.  Jonny Blu – Girl from Ipanema

9. Stacey Kent – I’ve got a crush on you

10. Damien Rice – 9 Crimes

Paul Van Dyk ft. Vega 4 – Time Of Our Lives (Pop Radio Mix)

I love this song… It’s inspiring!

Every time when I listen to it, I feel a little bit more prepared and almost able to do all the things I want to but don’t have the guts to do.

It reminds me of the lyrics from another favorite song: “Do the things that you always wanted to… Don’t think, Just Do...”. I heard it for the first time around 3 years ago but I still remember those words every time when I need the courage to act..and not just stand aside and let things slip away…

I sometimes need this push, this reminder of how I should just live, have the time of my life, do everything I wouldn’t usually dare, because the time of our lives is too great and too short to waist it…

This is why I love this song…

Oh, this is the time of our lives (4x)

There’s a time for us to let go
There’s a time for holding on
A time to speak, a time to listen
There’s a time for us to go

There’s a time for living low down
There’s a time for getting high
A time for peace, a time for violence
A time to live, a time to die

Oh, this is the time of our lives (4x)

A time to scream, a time for silence
A time for truth against the lies

There is a time for mixed-believing
There’s a time to understand

Oh, this is the time of our lives (8x)

Snow Patrol – Make This Go On Forever

I just randomly selected this song with the idea that I won’t possibly like it more than favorites for life like “Chasing Cars” or “You could be happy”..

But guess what .. I Did! 🙂

Snow Patrol.. has this unique own style of making music, which totally “fits me” right now and I think I will fall in love with almost every single one of their songs…

What do we know about this band? It turns out they are Northern Irish alternative rock band, formed in 1994, but known worldwide since 2003 when they release their album “Final Straw“.

It turns out all of their songs which I am familiar and in love with, are from the same album – “Eyes Open” published in 2006.

Keep in touch if you want to hear more of this album and band,which I believe just entered my ‘Most Favorite Albums for the year‘ folder :).

But now back to this amazing performance of theirs..


Please don’t let this turn into something it’s not
I can only give you everything I’ve got
I can’t be as sorry as you think I should
But I still love you more than anyone else could

All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right

This splintered mast I’m holding on won’t save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

We have got through so much worse than this before
What’s so different this time that you can’t ignore
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

And I don’t know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness [x2]

And I don’t know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness [x2]

Alexi Murdoch – Towards The Sun

Another song from the latest episode of One Tree Hill..

… the movie that I couldn’t stop watching during cold winter nights in Varna (especially if exams were near).

… the movie whose soundtrack I can always have the mood to listen to..

… the movie with real, complicated relationships in..

… a movie where you can feel every heartbeat, every trill, every fear, every loss, every hope and every dream..

… the movie whose episodes I am still impatiently waiting for..

… A movie that makes a difference and leaves a mark..

One Tree Hill.

See the clouds are creeping towards the sun
I’m drifting away unseen by anyone
The light is turning gray, the day is done

The water is cold and heavy on my mind
I dreamed of walking with you but I fell behind
Looking for a rose I could not find

Now the ice is stirring and spring is near
There is no one calling but the sound is clear
Though I’m not yet gone, I’m still not here

Sheryl Crow – I shall believe

Тази песен звуча в края на поредния епизод от един много любим сериал, който винаги ще свързвам с дългите безсънни дни и нощи по време на сесиите във Варна :D.

Филмът е One Tree Hill – като между другото една от причините толкова да го заобичам, бе точно музиката в него. До ден днешен се радвам на редица уникални парчета, изпълнители, които чух за първи път точно в различни епизоди на сериала.

Като погледна назад, осъзнавам, че всъщност от тези дни нататък започна да расте интереса ми към рока…и мъжки вокали 😉 (дълга шумна въздишка ).

Попаднах на един видеоклип, който показва избрани моменти от историята на Пейтън и Лукас, като в кратките откъси от различни епизоди разпознах няколко малки съкровища, които все още кътам и слушам от време на време като Michelle Featherstone – Coffee & Cigarettes и Jose Gonzalez – Heartbeats.

Шерил просто допълва колекцията…

Come to me now
And lay your hands over me
Even if it’s a lie
Say it will be alright
And I shall believe
I’m broken in two
And I know you’re on to me
That I only come home
When I’m so all alone
But I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly you won’t give up on me
And I shall believe
And I shall believe

Open the door
And show me your face tonight
I know it’s true
No one heals me like you
And you hold the key

Never again
would I turn away from you
I’m so heavy tonight
But your love is alright
And I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly
You won’t give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
And I shall believe

My Top 10 Albums and Songs for 2009

Време е за равносметка. Дълго тършувах из музикалните ‘архиви’ и преслушвах стари, нови, тотални хитове, любими колекцийки, уникални сингъли и ето на – класацията ми за най-добри албуми и песни за 2009г. е готова.

2009 бе годината на преотриване на жанрове. Първо това бе салсата като музика и танц. След това Jazz и незабравимия глас на Stacey Kent, както и така любимата ми Girl from Ipanema, която намерих в какви ли не кавъри.

2009 бе годината на мъжки вокали. Годината, в която се влюбих в alternative rock, в Крис Мартин и Coldplay, в Greg Laswell, Depeche Mode, Snow Patrol, The Fray и много други, публикувани през годината.

Много тотални хитове открих из саундтракове на разни американски сериали. Други пък от изтеглени случайно албуми, трети от приятели, дали ми цели папки с купища неща за преслушване.

Много уникални парчета чух през 2009. Както и много боклуци. В близкото бъдеще смятам да направя класация за ‘най-омразни и комерсиални песни’..

Тази година установих, че ушите ми са “перфорирани” и от известно време изпитвам ужасно раздразнение, нетърпимост и нетолерантност към някои парчета, изпълнители и цели стилове музика.

През 2009 не успях да опитам да слушам класическа музика, но ненаситността ми към нови изживявания в музикално отношение е безгранична, така че…2010 е пред мен  :).

Ето я и моята Top 10 Albums and Songs 2009 класация:

ALBUMS:

1. Coldplay – Prospekt’s March (2008)

2. Coldplay – A Rush of Blood To The Head

3. Conjure one – Conjure One (2002)

4. Greg Laswell – Three Flights From Alto Nido

5. Angels Chill Trance Essentials – Vol.1, Vol.2 & Vol.3

6. Enigma – Love Sensuality Devotion: The Greatest Hits

7. Lady Gaga – The fame monster (2009)

8. Tiesto – Gold Remixes (2008)

9. Miro – Omirotvoren (2009)

10. Madonna – Ray Of Light (1998)


SINGLES/SONGS:

1. Depeche Mode – Freelove

2. Seal – Crazy

3. Roxette – I wish I could fly

4. The Fray – How to save a life

5. Snow Patrol – Chasing Cars

6. Various Artists – Perfect Day

7. Kings Of Leon – Use Somebody (Pete Tong & Roger Wonderland Mix)

8.  Jonny Blu – Girl from Ipanema

9. Stacey Kent – I’ve got a crush on you

10. Damien Rice – 9 Crimes

ALBUMS:

1. Coldplay – Prospekt’s March (издаден през 2008)

2. Coldplay – A Rush of Blood To The Head

3. Conjure one – Conjure One (2002)

This is the self-titled debut album by Canadian electronic music project Conjure One, headed by Rhys Fulber.

Tracks:

1) Damascus

2) Center of the Sun

3) Tears from the Moon

4) Tidal Pool

5) Manic Star

6) Redemption

7) Years

8) Make a Wish

9) Pandora

10) Sleep

11) Premonition

4. Greg Laswell – Three Flights From Alto Nido

1. It’s Been a Year

2. That It Moves

3. The One I Love

4. Comes and Goes (In Waves)

5. How the Day Sounds

6. Sweet Dream

7. Days Go On

8. I’d Be Lying

9. Farewell

10. Not Out

11. And Then You

5. Angels Chill Trance Essentials – Vol.1, Vol.2 & Vol.3

6. Enigma – Love Sensuality Devotion: The Greatest Hits

7. Lady Gaga – The fame monster

8. Tiesto – Gold Remixes (2008)

9. Miro – Omirotvoren

10. Madonna – Ray Of Light (1998)

SINGLES/SONGS:

1. Depeche Mode – Freelove

2. Seal – Crazy

3. Roxette – I wish I could fly

4. The Fray – How to save a life

5. Snow Patrol – Chasing Cars

6. Various Artists – Perfect Day

7. Damien Rice – 9 Crimes

8.  Jonny Blu – Girl from Ipanema

9. Stacey Kent – I’ve got a crush on you

10. Rihanna feat. Justin Timberlake – Rehab

Finley Quaye – Dice

Уникална песен!

Нямам желание да слушам нищо друго, освен нея. Чудя се защо просто не я оставя да си седи единствена и неповторима в winamp, при положение, че при началото на следващата, веднага се връшам на нея..

I am in love!!! Ще се влюбите и вие, гарантирам! 🙂

Клипът също ще ви хареса, особено ако следите True Blood. Ако ли не- пригответе се за малко bloody tears and vampire teeth :).

Ох, не мога да спра да я слушам (горката ми съквартирантка..)

И да си тананикам..

Breathe in the air if you care, you compare, don’t say farewell..

Nothing can compare to when you roll the dice and swear your love’s for me… hmmm..

I was crying over you
I am smiling
I think of you
Where your garden have no walls
Breathe in the air if you care, you compare, don’t say farewell
Nothing can compare
To when you roll the dice and swear your love’s for me
Nothing can compare
To when you roll the dice and swear your love’s for me
I was crying over you
I am smiling I think of you
Misty morning and water falls
Breathe in the air if you care,
you compare, don’t say farewell
Nothing can compare
To when you roll the dice and swear your love’s for me

Nothing can compare
To when you roll the dice and swear your love’s for me
Nothing can compare
To when you roll the dice and swear your love’s for me
Virtuous sensibility
Escape velocity

Nothing can compare
To when you roll the dice and swear your love’s for me

Nothing can compare
To when you roll the dice and swear your love’s for me
Nothing can compare
To when you roll the dice and swear your love’s for me
Breathe in the air if you care, you compare, don’t say farewell
Nothing

Depeche Mode – Freelove

Нужно ли е да споменавам, че обожавам тази песен?! 😉

Според wikipedia, този single излиза през 2001 в САЩ и Великобритания. Аз попаднах на него от една папка, която някой ми беше дал преди време – “Best Ballads”. Слушам си я тези дни, на което се дължат и зачестилите ми постове ;).

Веднага се сетих, че съм я чувала някога преди и винаги съм я харесвала страшно много, само че кой да знае през далечната 2001 как се казва и кой я изпълнява…:)

Сега разполагам със свободно време да слушам и преоткривам -> лукс, който не можех да си позволя в Дания през предходните няколко месеца.

То не беше суматоха при настаняването, опознаване на града, на нощния живот, колегите, привикване към живота в Дания като цяло. После започнаха лекции, проекти, работа, втора, трета.., ментор компания, още лекции и още, и още от всичко.

И американски сериали – Dr. House, True Blood, Vampire Diaries, Heroes, V. и още много, които ме разсейваха в промеждутъците.

Ето защо бях станала доста комерсиална по едно време. (да, търся си оправдания! :P). Та реших да понаваксам и ето първото от няколкото попадения.

Едно позабравено от мен, но току що преоткрито съкровище, което ще прибавя в набъбващата папка “Total Favorites for life“. 🙂

Таймингът също е перфектен този път, затова и удебеленият шрифт е почти навсякъде… 🙂

Стига подробности, наслаждавайте се на песента!

Весели Празници! 😉

P.S. Специален поздрав за едно момче, което май също я преоткри покрай мен (а покрай блога ми и още много други, надявам се ;)).

If you’ve been hiding from love
If you’ve been hiding from love
I can understand where you’re coming from

I can understand where you’re coming from

If you’ve suffered enough
If you’ve suffered enough
I can understand what you’re thinking of
I can see the pain that you’re frightened of

And I’m only here
To bring you free love

Let’s make it clear
That this is free love
No hidden catch
No strings attached
Just free love

No hidden catch
No strings attached
Just free love

I’ve been running like you
I’ve been running like you
Now you understand why I’m running scared

Now you understand why I’m running scared

I’ve been searching for truth
I’ve been searching for truth
And I haven’t been getting anywhere
No I haven’t been getting anywhere

And I’m only here
To bring you free love
Let’s make it clear
That this is free love
No hidden catch
No strings attached
Just free love

No hidden catch
No strings attached
Just free love

Hey girl
You’ve got to take this moment
Then let it slip away
Let go of complicated feelings

Then there’s no price to pay

We’ve been running from love
We’ve been running from love
And we don’t know what we’re doing here

No we don’t know what we’re doing here

We’re only here
Sharing our free love

Let’s make it clear
That this is free love
No hidden catch
No strings attached
Just free love
No hidden catch
No strings attached
Just free love

Placebo – Every you Every me

Няма как да не сте чували тази песен, особено ако през 1999г. сте били достатъчно големи, за да гледате Секс Игри (Cruel Intentions) ;).

Да, това е саундтракът от първия и единствения що-годе добър филм от триголията. Другите два не просто, че не се открояват с добър подбор на музика, но дори и за най-непретенциозните зрители не представляваха оосбен итерес.

Поредните плоски, незадълбочени в историята продукции на американската кино индустрия… (Вече взех леко да изгрубявам, ама така става, като чета дълги нареждащи “ревюта” на разни добри и не толкова филми :D)

Ако не друго, поне музиката остава добър привкус след такива филми 🙂

Така че enjoy! 😛

Sucker love is heaven sent.
You pucker up, our passion’s spent.
My hearts a tart, your body’s rent.
My body’s broken, yours is bent.

Carve your name into my arm.
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.
Cuz there’s nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.

Sucker love, a box I choose.
No other box I choose to use.
Another love I would abuse,
No circumstances could excuse.

In the shape of things to come.
Too much poison come undone.
Cuz there’s nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me…he

Sucker love is known to swing.
Prone to cling and waste these things.
Pucker up for heavens sake.
There’s never been so much at stake.

I serve my head up on a plate.
It’s only comfort, calling late.
Cuz there’s nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me…he

Every me and every you,
Every Me…he

Like the naked leads the blind.
I know I’m selfish, I’m unkind.
Sucker love I always find,
Someone to bruise and leave behind.

All alone in space and time.
There’s nothing here but what here’s mine.
Something borrowed, something blue.
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me…he

Every me and every you,
Every Me…he [x4]