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Sia – My Love

Early in the morning, late at night, everywhere, any time, this song is with me constantly..

If I don’t listen to it, I sing in my mind. When next track starts, I just press Previous..

Obsessed all over again. Can’t resist it.

I can only wish myself one such song every day and I will be a happy woman!

And when I ask myself if I feel happy now, I feel the urge to scream “YES!” (long-sigh-of-relief ;))

I feel good, insecure, somewhat unprepared, excited, impatient. With a hint for what is about to happen, a memory from what already did and with the desire for more , I wait to see what tomorrow will bring.

I’ve always liked the idea of the American proverb “Today is the first day of the rest of your life“. Starting – next Monday!

Am I ready for it?! Most probably not. Will I enjoy every second of it? You can bet I will!

Especially with such good music in the background.

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, you have found peace
You were searching for release

You gave it all, into the call
You took a chance and
You took a fall for us

You came thoughtfully, loved me faithfully
You taught me honor, you did it for me

Tonight you will sleep for good
You will wait for me my love

Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, look what you can do
I am mending, I’ll be with you

You took my hand added a plan
You gave me your heart
I asked you to dance with me

You loved honestly
Did what you could release
Aaaahhh oooh

I know you’re pleased to go
I won’t relieve this love

Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, I’ll be with you
oooooohh ooooh
Du du du ooooooh

Back, but not for too long & Sparklehorse – Sea of Teeth

В България съм отново, във ваканция след успешно взети изпити. Не бях писала скоро в Отдушника си и тази вечер нахвърлях някакви неща, които ми се въртят в главата тези дни. Иска ми се да ги споделя и тук…

“06.07.2010

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И ето ме от България, седнала на земята, както обичам да правя, с лаптоп на леглото, възглавница в скута и като background – току що изтегления саундтрак на филма, който гледах досега – Remember me с Робърт Патисън.

Не знам какво да пиша. Изпитите минаха, имам 7, 12, 7. Прибрах се успешно, майка се опита да поплаче на летището, но аз я разсеях и прекъснах с ‘Хайде стига, къде са ми черешите?! 😉

Още на следващия ден изфучахме от вкъщи рано рано по задачи и срещи с приятели.

Още от първия ден искам да се върна обратно…. не ми се остава тук.

Искам Mr. X, искам си работата в клуба, искам си квартирата в Бирк, всичко си искам…

И толкова дълго време ще остана тук, че се опасявам, че отново ще свикна и накрая няма да ми се прибира…;(

Онзи ден Mr. X ми прати мейл във фейсбук, отговорих му, а после си говорихме в скайп. Разни дългосрочни планове се въртят в тази моя главица, а съм си обещала такива неща повече не! В някои отношения е по-добре да се оставиш на течението, а не да предвиждаш и плануваш всеки следващ миг.

И колкото и да ми говори Mr. X как иска да пътуваме някъде през ваканцията след първия семестър (януари 2011?!), аз толкова далеч в бъдещето отказвам да гледам!

И се наслаждавам на моментите сега. Жалко, че него го няма в тях.

Което ми напомня, че трябва да му направя клипче с гледката от прозореца ми. Продължавам да се удивявам на кофти пътищата, сгради, въобще типична българска градска среда (как бързо се отвиква….) и само се подсмихвам и си мисля как на всеки ъгъл той би казал нещо от сорта на „This is so illegal”…

Мисля си как нямаме бъдеще с него и се чудя понякога, гледайки отстрани на всичко – защо продължавам да съм с него, при пложение, че “трябва да търся нещо сериозно…” както му е казвано напоследък.

Но след такъв филм, в който героят живееше за мига, безотговорно, правеше всичко, без да мисли какви последствия ще има за бъдещето му и накрая умря в една от кулите близнаци на 11.09.2001, всичко изглежда някак безсмислено. Това ‘търсене на нещо сериозно’ приемам по-скоро като пропиляно време, в което съм можела да правя това, което искам, а не това което се очаква.

Затова сега ще се наслаждавам на всяка секунда тук, сама в Бг, и после, евентуално с Mr.  X в Дания. Ако не с него, дори и сама, ще живея за мига, ще се радвам на всичко, от което повечето се оплакват.

Ще се смея, ще плача, ще припадам от смях, ще лудувам, ще сияя с усмивката си, ще се радвам на рядко появяващото се слънце в Дания, ще правя всичко всичко, докато мога

Следващата песен от саундртака започна с думите ‘Can you feel the wind…’

Искам да усещам вятъра и да затварям очи всеки път, когато съм навън, да чувствам всяка секунда като нещо специално, защото е!

Искам да вдишвам живот и да издишвам щастие и задоволство. От вятъра, от живота, от студа, от жегата, от слънцето, от морето, от бриза на брега, от музиката в ушите ми.

Искам да съм постоянно обградена от стойностна, наелектрезирваща музика, която да ме кара да казвам и пиша неща в моменти, в които нямам какво да кажа. Като сега.”

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Ето я и песента, която споменах по-горе…

Can you feel the wind of venus on your skin?

Can you taste the crush of a sunset’s dying blush?

Stars will always hand in summer’s bleeding veils

Can you feel the rings of saturn on your finger?

Can you taste the ghosts who shed their creaking hosts?

But seas forever boil, trees will turn to soil

Stars will always hand in summer’s bleeding veils

But seas forever boil, trees will turn to soil

My Lucky Number 7 [EN]

After being dared by my favorite Morko in a post of his, I decided to prove once again that I have an excellent music taste.

I will do that by creating a special list putting a lot of efforts and a spoon of good memories in its creation. An extraordinary and precious list containing the seven albums I would take on a desert island with me

it is important to keep in mind that you should not just include your favorites for the moment, but music that has passed the test of time and that you could listen to for at least another 10 years…

Now that is what I call a ‘tough job‘.. so many great artists, albums and song.. How the hell can I restrict myself to only 7 albums?! Only if they were albums which I created myself during the years, playlists from my MP3-Player or some total favorites for life… But No, rules are rules, have to be followed..

It was still a great pleasure and even an honor to select My Lucky Number 7.. I made that choice rather quickly, without having second thoughts or reconsidering my choice. Who knows, that may lead to some corrections in time..:)

(That was what I wrote more than 2 years ago, but now when I decided to translate the article, I still feel the same way, just can add some extra albums like most by Coldplay, Greg Laswell etc., but definitely cannot remove anyone of those stated beneath…;))

So here they are – My Top 7 Albums, which I would take with me on a desert island, my 7 little music treasures:

1) Madonna – Ray of light

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All the best by Madonna gathered in one – this is what this album represents for me.. I cannot chose one single song that I favorite the most.. Ray of Light, Nothing Really Matters, The Power of Good-bye, Drowned world (Substitute for love), Frozen, Candy Perfumed girl, Little star, Mer Girl…. simply Madonna ..

2) Ace of base – The Bridge

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Ever since I was a short, skinny, approximately 10-years-old girl, I was singing their song all the time in my room, knowing by heart every single one from this album. I had and played that tape millions of times, with and without any special reason. I was so obsessed, that I put a poster of the album cover on my door… I was so crazy about them.. 😉

  1. Beautiful Life
  2. Never Gonna Say I’m Sorry
  3. Lucky Love (Original Version)
  4. Edge of Heaven
  5. Strange Ways
  6. Ravine
  7. Perfect World
  8. Angel Eyes
  9. Whispers In Blindness
  10. My Déjà Vu
  11. You and I
  12. Wave Wet Sand
  13. Que Sera
  14. Just ‘N’ Image
  15. Lucky Love (Acoustic Version)”
  16. Experience Pearls
  17. Blooming 18

3) Chicane – Behind the Sun

When I was younger, back at the time when I still didn’t have my favorite MP3-Player (which I feel naked without right now), I was playing Chicane on my stereo and was falling asleep under the sounds of Offshore and Saltwater now those were some sweet dreams :))

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4) Madonna – Music

A little more different sound by Madonna. My favorites are What it feels like for a girl, Beautiful Stranger, American Pie, Music and Don’t tell Me.

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5) City of Angels OST

I downloaded the soundtrack of the ‘City of Angels’ movie after watching it for dozen times and they all immediately became unbreakable part of my MP3-Player and of my Total Favorites for Life Folder… Those are Alanis Morisette – Uninvited, Goo Goo Dolls – Iris, U2 – If God Will Send His Angels, Sarah McLachlan – Angel, Paula Cole – Feelin’ Love. I also have to mention Gabriel Yared, who has 4 unforgettable tracks in it…

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6) Cafe del Mar Vol.5 (1998)

I was hesitating between few volumes of Cafe del mar, but Vol.5 from ’98 is definitely outstanding among all with its obvious uniqueness and different sound. Attention deserve most tracks like Mumbai Theme Tune, More Than Ever People, Appreciation (Radio Mix), Tout Est Bleu (Original Ame Strong S.A. Remix), Talking With Myself ’98 (Canny Remix) !!! and most of all Close Cover by Wim Mertens!

Simply Inspiring!

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7) Enigma – Love Sensuality Devotion – Greatest Hits

Last but not least, this album by my favorite Enigma I will leave without a comment, because I had already said what it means to me in another article (only in BG unfortunately).

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Mew – Comforting Sounds

С тази песен и всичко, с което я свързвам започва истинското ново начало при мен. Този fresh start, за който нямах смелостта, волята и дори желанието допреди известно време…настъпи. И ме кара да се чувствам толкова дяволски добре, толкова спокойна, уверена, на мястото си… (тук последва една дълга облекчаваща въздишка :))

Готова съм отново да бъда щастлива! И да следвам този любим цитат от един тотален мой фаворит, който май ми е станал нещо като мото:

“Do the things that you always wanted to… Don’t think, Just DO!”

I don’t feel alright in spite of these comforting sounds you make.
I don’t feel alright because you make promises that you break.
Into your house, why don’t we share our solitude?
Nothing is pure anymore but solitude.
It’s hard to make sense, feels as if I’m sensing you through a lens.
If someone else comes, I’d just sit here listening to the drums.
Previously I never called it solitude.
And probably you know all the dirty shows I’ve put on.
Blunted and exhausted like anyone.
Honestly I tried to avoid it.
Honestly.
Back when we were kids, we would always know when to stop.
And now all the good kids are messing up.
Nobody has gained or accomplished anything

My Top 10 Albums and Songs for 2009 [EN]

It is time to draw the line.

I was searching around my music archives and I was listening to old, new, total hits, favorite collections, unique singles and there it is – my rating for Top albums and songs for 2009 is ready.

2009 was the year of Rediscovering of genres. The first one was salsa as music and dance. Afterwords – Jazz and the unforgettable voice of Stacey Kent, as well as my favorite one – Girl from Ipanema which you can find performed by numerous artists.

2009 was the year of male vocals. The year I fall in love with alternative rock, with Cris Martin and Coldplay, with Greg Laswell, Depeche Mode, Snow Patrol, The Fray and so many others I’ve published during the year.

A lot of total hits I discovered among soundtracks of some American serial movies. Others – from randomly downloaded albums, thirds – from friends who were kind enough to give me folders with tons of stuff to listen to and select of…

2009 was the year of many unique tracks. It was as well the year of ‘junk’ music. I am soon planning to write a post about ‘The worst most hideous and commercial songs ever‘ ..

In 2009 I realized that my ears are like ‘perforated‘ and for some time I feel a terrible irritation and intolerance and I am simply unable to listen to some tracks, performers and music styles…

In 2009 I didn’t manage to listen to classical music, but my appetite for new musical experiences is infinite, so … 2010 is ahead of me :).

So there it is..
My Top 10 Albums and Songs for 2009 are:

ALBUMS:

1. Coldplay – Prospekt’s March (2008)

2. Coldplay – A Rush of Blood To The Head

3. Conjure one – Conjure One (2002)

4. Greg Laswell – Three Flights From Alto Nido

5. Angels Chill Trance Essentials – Vol.1, Vol.2 & Vol.3

6. Enigma – Love Sensuality Devotion: The Greatest Hits

7. Lady Gaga – The fame monster (2009)

8. Tiesto – Gold Remixes (2008)

9. Miro – Omirotvoren (2009)

10. Madonna – Ray Of Light (1998)


SINGLES/SONGS:

1. Depeche Mode – Freelove

2. Seal – Crazy

3. Roxette – I wish I could fly

4. The Fray – How to save a life

5. Snow Patrol – Chasing Cars

6. Various Artists – Perfect Day

7. Kings Of Leon – Use Somebody (Pete Tong & Roger Wonderland Mix)

8.  Jonny Blu – Girl from Ipanema

9. Stacey Kent – I’ve got a crush on you

10. Damien Rice – 9 Crimes

Paul Van Dyk ft. Vega 4 – Time Of Our Lives (Pop Radio Mix)

I love this song… It’s inspiring!

Every time when I listen to it, I feel a little bit more prepared and almost able to do all the things I want to but don’t have the guts to do.

It reminds me of the lyrics from another favorite song: “Do the things that you always wanted to… Don’t think, Just Do...”. I heard it for the first time around 3 years ago but I still remember those words every time when I need the courage to act..and not just stand aside and let things slip away…

I sometimes need this push, this reminder of how I should just live, have the time of my life, do everything I wouldn’t usually dare, because the time of our lives is too great and too short to waist it…

This is why I love this song…

Oh, this is the time of our lives (4x)

There’s a time for us to let go
There’s a time for holding on
A time to speak, a time to listen
There’s a time for us to go

There’s a time for living low down
There’s a time for getting high
A time for peace, a time for violence
A time to live, a time to die

Oh, this is the time of our lives (4x)

A time to scream, a time for silence
A time for truth against the lies

There is a time for mixed-believing
There’s a time to understand

Oh, this is the time of our lives (8x)

Snow Patrol – Make This Go On Forever

I just randomly selected this song with the idea that I won’t possibly like it more than favorites for life like “Chasing Cars” or “You could be happy”..

But guess what .. I Did! 🙂

Snow Patrol.. has this unique own style of making music, which totally “fits me” right now and I think I will fall in love with almost every single one of their songs…

What do we know about this band? It turns out they are Northern Irish alternative rock band, formed in 1994, but known worldwide since 2003 when they release their album “Final Straw“.

It turns out all of their songs which I am familiar and in love with, are from the same album – “Eyes Open” published in 2006.

Keep in touch if you want to hear more of this album and band,which I believe just entered my ‘Most Favorite Albums for the year‘ folder :).

But now back to this amazing performance of theirs..


Please don’t let this turn into something it’s not
I can only give you everything I’ve got
I can’t be as sorry as you think I should
But I still love you more than anyone else could

All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right

This splintered mast I’m holding on won’t save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

We have got through so much worse than this before
What’s so different this time that you can’t ignore
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

And I don’t know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness [x2]

And I don’t know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness [x2]