I am back

Постоянство. Винаги ми е липсвало.

Мисля, че с бързо ‘прелистване’ на блога, лесно може да се забележи.
Има известна периодичност. Преди се оправдавах с факта, че нямам муза в определени моменти. После дойде работата, учението, гаджето, забързания живот и с него хилядите оправдания, в които съм се усъвършенствала толкова много.

След месеци мълчание, днес отворих блога си. Първо бях изненадана от факта, че все още имам валидна регистрация. Не бях толкова изненадана, че за момент си забравих паролата. Минута по-късно бях почти шокирана от факта, че някои дни са доста силни откъм читателски интерес, при все че масата от статии нямат текст (ако не броим lyrics).

След това се зачетох. Усмихвах се на позапрашелите спомени, усещането за промяна в мен, коео вярвам, че е винаги за по-добро.

И си спомних защо толкова много обичам тази малка моя музикална кутийка.

Събрала е купища ценна музика и безброй емоции, спомени за това кога, как и поради каква причина съм писала. Кара ме да си спомням какво е било тогава и как съм стигнала до тук.

Това е не просто блог пълен с любимите ми парчета, това е кутия със спомени, които от малка винаги съм искала да имам.

Иска ми се да продължа да го правя. Да преотривам себе си, докато пиша, да събирам като стари марки в книга всички любими за момента артисти и албуми, да размишлявам, да дълбая, да бъда сама със себе си.

Липсва ми. Затова съм тук и пиша отново. За свое собствено удовослтвие. За да виждам промяната. За да запазя спомените. За да бъда себе си.

Разбира се, новото начало изисква свежа музика. Hurts… основана не много отдавна, тази английска група ме завладя толкова бързо, лесно и силно, че потрепервам всеки път, когато си пусна нещо тяхно.

Обичам да вярвам на усещанията си. Откакто чух Hurts за първи път, знам, че ще съм техен фен до живот. Твърде силно е, за да го пренебрегна и да го отдам на това, че са нови, свежи и каквото и да е. Просто го знам!

Реших да започна с Evelyn..

New Year, New Love

 

Слушам си така любимата Conjure One – Premonition, която все още ми напомня за периода, в който преживявах Адам.

Oнези пролетни месеци във Варна, когато търсех утеха и спасение в нарочно затрупаното ежедневие и вечните партита през нощта.. Сякаш депресията не се усещаше така силно.. А и идеята, че той продължава да ме обича и че има надежда също ме крепеше от изпадане в бездната, където те отвежда осъзнатата жестока истина. Не исках да я призная тогава и ме боля донякъде по-малко заради това.

Нова страница. Clean slate. Истински! Колко пъти съм си казвала, заявявала наляво и надясно и писала тук, че ‘най-после съм преживяла Адам…’. Безброй са. И всичките целяха да убедят преди всичко мен. Толкова неуспешно.

Колкото исках да го забравя и преживея, толкова надеждата ми за събирането ни не ми позволяваше да продължа напред. Толкова силно бе желанието ми и дори нуждата от комуникация с него. В онези моменти по-болезнено за мен беше да се опитам да прекъсна контакт с него, отколкото да се самозаблуждавам, че някой ден пак можем да бъдем заедно. А дълбоко в себе си аз бях наясно, че това никога няма да се случи, но не можех да го призная. Not yet.

Вместо това се успокоявах с приятели, нови запознанства, хубава музика, партита и разкази. Моите разкази на по кафе с приятел за това колко хубаво и перфектно беше. Перфектната връзка. The perfect match. Perfect couple.  Perfect everything.

Всичко е временно, всичко тече и все някога eventually изчезва дори от света на спомените. Колко съм благодарна понякога, че забравям бързо. Забравям, но не преживявам лесно. Повече от 2 години ми отне да се отърся изцяло от него и от идеята за Нас. Перфектните нас. Които никога не сме били.

In the end of the day се оказа, че едно единствено нещо, което можеше и успя да ме накара да забравя един, бе любовта ми към друг. Като the key word is LOVE. Не просто друг мъж, но истинско чувство към него.

Отне време, ужасно много време да си позволя да чувствам отново. Но с месеците малко по малко той превзе сърцето ми. Изчисти го и освободи място за една топлота, която струи толкова силно в момента. И докато пиша това, се страхувам от силата, с която мога да го обичам. Поради което все още леко се ограничавам.

Осъзнах, че го обичам преди два дни. В средата на една жестока кавга. В която не просто бях виновната, но и глупавата. И почти успях да разваля и приключа всичко между нас.

В момента, в който осъзнах, че съм на път да го загубя и то по мое желание, заплаках с все сила и му казах „Не, не искам да те зарежа, напротив, искам те повече от всякога…”.

Това бе моментът, в който най-после се освободих от миналото и заобичах отново. Доста по-плахо и бавно, но най-после отново го усещам. ..Това учестено сърцебиене за някой друг. Прекрасно и толкова плашещо. Но прелъстяващо. Въпрос на време е да надделее над страха и да ме превземе изцяло.

И тогава Бог да ми е на помощ. Защото в любовта си страдам най-силно. Дано само той ми покаже и/или докаже, че я заслужава.

 

My soul is a desert
When nothing is comfort
Sheltered from chaos
And sheltered from you

Can’t feel you anymore
Don’t need you anymore
Don’t believe you anymore
I don’t need you anymore

Enough with temptations
Illusions are evil
We exist in confusion
Soulless and vain

Can’t feel you anymore
Don’t need you anymore
Don’t believe you anymore
I don’t need you anymore

It’s broken me down now
This hurts and it’s hopeless
Can’t look to the future
The window is stained

Can’t feel you anymore
Don’t need you anymore
Don’t believe you anymore
I don’t need you anymore

I don’t need you
anymore, I don’t need
you anymore
I don’t need you
anymore, I don’t need
you anymore

Here’s to fresh starts!

So here I am. Enjoying my home alone night for the first time in a while. Discovering a great new song, again for the first time in quite a while. Regretting I didn’t write and post so many things worth sharing.

As some suggested – the bad went away eventually. And everything got better.

Pure luck is often the reason why best things in life happen. Pure luck and a smile, preferably accompanied by positive thinking. Always. As hard as it might be. Downs in life make that quite harder, but eventually not impossible.

Music was forgotten. Time for being a big girl, doing serious things and working hard in the pursuit of a better life.

Life finally put its pink glasses for me. Hopefully for long this time. I need them so badly. This is why as exhausting as it might be sometimes, I am grateful.

And I start wanting more.  It is true what they say: “The moment you get what you want, you start wanting something else”. The trick is to think big, dream big and enjoy the journey. And try to learn from every experience, no matter good or bad. And to change in the process. Cause change leads to development, they say. I tend to believe that.

Cheers! To fresh starts!

I catch your eyes , try not to smile

I track your style I feel your vibes

We have a drink then go outside

Talk for a while and then we kiss

And then we kiss … (x2)

We play the game we start to move

I feel my heart you feel the bit

I take your hand you turn down slow

We start to feel It’s time … to go.

Tonight moon it will hit the sky

And it’s no surprise we’ll wake up with you

Right I shouldn’t compromise,I don’t have to think twice

What to do …

You got me hypnotized (x3)

So you know what to do

You got me hypnotized (x3)

So you know what to do

So we slide into the night and to the wild open flow

Oh stary eyes you see me glow so will I hide or will I show

You watch me dance I feel you move

You pull me near nothing to fear

We drifted outside, dream aside until we slide into the light

Tonight moon it will hit the sky

And it’s no surprise we’ll wake up with you

Right I shouldn’t compromise I don’t have to think twice

What to do ..

You got me hypnotized x3

So you know what to do

You got me hypnotized (x3)

So you know what to do …

Ups & Downs

This is how I can describe the first month since I am Back. A lot of downs and eventually some jump up, a dive into the good side of life here.

I am sick of it all sometimes. I am sick of all that miserie I have to bear and clean. I am sick of seeing and people trying to exploid others in any way possible. I am sick of those who are so selfish that can’t put themselves into your shoes, despite they were there not long ago.

In one moment I laugh and everything is perfect, and then one word or the lack of it can push me into a dark corner of my mind and keep me there for hours. When being there, feeling pitty for myself, I feel so comforting and safe .

Sometimes I get stuck inthere, and I feel there is no one to drag me out of it. No one really to rely on, to find comfort and a warm hug. No one can fell me, recognize in my look  my fears and worries. I am alone. Among so many people. And that is a sad thought that makes me burst into tears often.

I feel like a lost child in a crowded amuzement park full with screaming kids, annoyed parents and repulsingly looking clowns. It’s dark, and the few blinding lights from the rides are making it hard to find the exit. It’s a mad world. And there is no one who can or want to help. No one who cares. They just smile and pass by. Not their problem after all, right?!

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
Love the way you lie

[Verse 1 - Eminem]
I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there’s a steel knife in my windpipe
I can’t breathe but I still fight all I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it’s like I’m in flight

High off on love, drunk from my hate
It’s like I’m huffin’ paint and I love it
The more I suffer, I suffocate
Right before I’m about to drown, she resuscitates
Me, she f**kin’ hates me, and I love it, Wait!
Where you going? I’m leaving you.
No you ain’t. Come back. We’re running right back

Here we go again, it’s so insane
Cuz when it’s going good, it’s going great
I’m Superman with the wind in his back
She’s Louis Lane and when its bad, it’s awful
I feel so ashamed, I snap “Who’s that dude?”
I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her, I’ll never stood so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Verse 2 - Eminem]
You ever love somebody so much,
you could barely breathe when you with ‘em?
You meet, and neither one of you even know it hit ‘em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah them chills you still get ‘em
Now you gettin’ f**kin’ sick of lookin’ at ‘em
You swore you’d never hit ‘em, never do nothing to hurt ‘em
Now you’re in each other’s face spewing venom in your words when you spit ‘em
You push, pull each other’s hair, scratch, claw, bit ‘em
Throw ‘em down, pin ‘em, so lost in the moments when you’re in ‘em

It’s the rage that took over it controls you both <<
So they say it’s best to go your separate ways
Guess that they don’t know ya cuz today,
That was yesterday, yesterday is over and it’s a different day
Sound like broken records playing over
But you promised her, next time you’d show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no nintendo game, but you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that’s why they call it “window pane”

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
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I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Verse 3 - Eminem]
Now I know we said things, did things that we didn’t mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routines
But your temper’s just as bad as mine is
You’re the same as me
When it comes to love you’re just as blinded

Baby please come back, it wasn’t you. Baby it was me.
Maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much, to walk away now
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
I told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed, I’ll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time? There won’t be no next time
I apologize, even though I know it’s lies
I’m tired of the games, I just want her back. I know I’m a liar
If she ever tries to f**kin’ leave again,
Ima tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
Just gonna

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

U2 – With or Without You

A song by U2 from 1987.

Sounds as the mid 90′s to me, but what do I know?! (except the fact that Bono was HoT back then ;) )

Enjoy it, one of their greatest songs for sure!

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side.
I wait for you.
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you.

Through the storm, we reach the shore
You gave it all but I want more
And I’m waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you.
I can’t live with or without you.

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give, and you give
And you give yourself away.

My hands are tied, my body bruised
She´s got me with nothing to win
And nothing left to lose.

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give, and you give
And you give yourself away.

With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you.

With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you
With or without you.

Sia – My Love

Early in the morning, late at night, everywhere, any time, this song is with me constantly..

If I don’t listen to it, I sing in my mind. When next track starts, I just press Previous..

Obsessed all over again. Can’t resist it.

I can only wish myself one such song every day and I will be a happy woman!

And when I ask myself if I feel happy now, I feel the urge to scream “YES!” (long-sigh-of-relief ;) )

I feel good, insecure, somewhat unprepared, excited, impatient. With a hint for what is about to happen, a memory from what already did and with the desire for more , I wait to see what tomorrow will bring.

I’ve always liked the idea of the American proverb “Today is the first day of the rest of your life“. Starting – next Monday!

Am I ready for it?! Most probably not. Will I enjoy every second of it? You can bet I will!

Especially with such good music in the background.

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, you have found peace
You were searching for release

You gave it all, into the call
You took a chance and
You took a fall for us

You came thoughtfully, loved me faithfully
You taught me honor, you did it for me

Tonight you will sleep for good
You will wait for me my love

Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, look what you can do
I am mending, I’ll be with you

You took my hand added a plan
You gave me your heart
I asked you to dance with me

You loved honestly
Did what you could release
Aaaahhh oooh

I know you’re pleased to go
I won’t relieve this love

Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, I’ll be with you
oooooohh ooooh
Du du du ooooooh

Back, but not for too long & Sparklehorse – Sea of Teeth

В България съм отново, във ваканция след успешно взети изпити. Не бях писала скоро в Отдушника си и тази вечер нахвърлях някакви неща, които ми се въртят в главата тези дни. Иска ми се да ги споделя и тук…

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И ето ме от България, седнала на земята, както обичам да правя, с лаптоп на леглото, възглавница в скута и като background – току що изтегления саундтрак на филма, който гледах досега – Remember me с Робърт Патисън.

Не знам какво да пиша. Изпитите минаха, имам 7, 12, 7. Прибрах се успешно, майка се опита да поплаче на летището, но аз я разсеях и прекъснах с ‘Хайде стига, къде са ми черешите?! ;)

Още на следващия ден изфучахме от вкъщи рано рано по задачи и срещи с приятели.

Още от първия ден искам да се върна обратно…. не ми се остава тук.

Искам Mr. X, искам си работата в клуба, искам си квартирата в Бирк, всичко си искам…

И толкова дълго време ще остана тук, че се опасявам, че отново ще свикна и накрая няма да ми се прибира…;(

Онзи ден Mr. X ми прати мейл във фейсбук, отговорих му, а после си говорихме в скайп. Разни дългосрочни планове се въртят в тази моя главица, а съм си обещала такива неща повече не! В някои отношения е по-добре да се оставиш на течението, а не да предвиждаш и плануваш всеки следващ миг.

И колкото и да ми говори Mr. X как иска да пътуваме някъде през ваканцията след първия семестър (януари 2011?!), аз толкова далеч в бъдещето отказвам да гледам!

И се наслаждавам на моментите сега. Жалко, че него го няма в тях.

Което ми напомня, че трябва да му направя клипче с гледката от прозореца ми. Продължавам да се удивявам на кофти пътищата, сгради, въобще типична българска градска среда (как бързо се отвиква….) и само се подсмихвам и си мисля как на всеки ъгъл той би казал нещо от сорта на „This is so illegal”…

Мисля си как нямаме бъдеще с него и се чудя понякога, гледайки отстрани на всичко – защо продължавам да съм с него, при пложение, че “трябва да търся нещо сериозно…” както му е казвано напоследък.

Но след такъв филм, в който героят живееше за мига, безотговорно, правеше всичко, без да мисли какви последствия ще има за бъдещето му и накрая умря в една от кулите близнаци на 11.09.2001, всичко изглежда някак безсмислено. Това ‘търсене на нещо сериозно’ приемам по-скоро като пропиляно време, в което съм можела да правя това, което искам, а не това което се очаква.

Затова сега ще се наслаждавам на всяка секунда тук, сама в Бг, и после, евентуално с Mr.  X в Дания. Ако не с него, дори и сама, ще живея за мига, ще се радвам на всичко, от което повечето се оплакват.

Ще се смея, ще плача, ще припадам от смях, ще лудувам, ще сияя с усмивката си, ще се радвам на рядко появяващото се слънце в Дания, ще правя всичко всичко, докато мога

Следващата песен от саундртака започна с думите ‘Can you feel the wind…’

Искам да усещам вятъра и да затварям очи всеки път, когато съм навън, да чувствам всяка секунда като нещо специално, защото е!

Искам да вдишвам живот и да издишвам щастие и задоволство. От вятъра, от живота, от студа, от жегата, от слънцето, от морето, от бриза на брега, от музиката в ушите ми.

Искам да съм постоянно обградена от стойностна, наелектрезирваща музика, която да ме кара да казвам и пиша неща в моменти, в които нямам какво да кажа. Като сега.”

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Ето я и песента, която споменах по-горе…

Can you feel the wind of venus on your skin?

Can you taste the crush of a sunset’s dying blush?

Stars will always hand in summer’s bleeding veils

Can you feel the rings of saturn on your finger?

Can you taste the ghosts who shed their creaking hosts?

But seas forever boil, trees will turn to soil

Stars will always hand in summer’s bleeding veils

But seas forever boil, trees will turn to soil

Jay-Z feat. Alicia Keys – Empire State of Mind

Great hit! Love it! But what’s with the strange pose of Alicia Keys while playing the piano?!

Yeah
Yeah I’m out that Brooklyn, now I’m down in Tribeca
Right next to Deniro, but I’ll be hood forever
I’m the new Sinatra, and since I made it here
I can make it anywhere, yeah they love me everywhere
I used to cop in Harlem, all of my Dominicano’s
Right there up on Broadway, pull me back to that McDonald’s
Took it to my stashbox, 560 State Strett
Catch me in the kitchen like a Simmons with them pastries
Cruisin’ down 8th Street, off white Lexus
Drivin’ so slow, but BK is from Texas
Me, I’m out that Bed-Stuy, home of that boy Biggie
Now I live on billboard and I brought my boys with me
Say whatup to Ty-Ty, still sippin’ mai tai’s
Sittin’ courtside, Knicks & Nets give me high five
Nigga I be Spike’d out, I could trip a referee
Tell by my attitude that I’m most definitely from…

New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There’s nothin’ you can’t do
Now you’re in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let’s hear it for New York, New York,
New York

Catch me at the X with OG at a Yankee game
Shit, I made the Yankee hat more famous then a Yankee can
You should know I bleed blue, but I ain’t a Crip though
But I got a gang of Niggas walkin’ with my clique though
Welcome to the melting pot, corners where we sellin’ rock
Africa Bambata shit, home of the hip-hop
Yellow cab, gypsy cab, dollar cab, holla back
For foreigners it ain’t for they act like they forgot how to act
Eight million stories, out there in it naked
City is a pity, half of y’all won’t make it
Me, I got a plug, Special Ed “I Got It Made”
If Jesus payin’ Lebron, I’m payin’ Dwayne Wade
Three dice cee-lo, three card molly
Labour Day Parade, rest in peace Bob Marley
Statue of Liberty, long live the World Trade
Long live the Kingdome, I’m from the Empire St. that’s

New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There’s nothin’ you can’t do
Now you’re in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let’s hear it for New York, New York,
New York

Lights is blinding, girls need blinders
So they can step out of bounds quick
The sidelines is, lined with casualties, who sip to life casually
Then gradually become worse, don’t bite the apple leaf
Caught up in the in-crowd, now you’re in style
End of the winter gets cold, en vogue, with your skin out
City of sin, it’s a pity on the wind
Good girls gone bad, the city’s filled with them
Mommy took a bus trip, now she got her bust out
Everybody ride her, just like a bus route
Hail Mary to the city, you’re a virgin
And Jesus can’t save you, life starts when the church end
Came here for school, graduated to the high life
Ball players, rap stars, addicted to the limelight
MDMA got you feelin’ like a champion
The city never sleeps, better slip you an Ambien

New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There’s nothin’ you can’t do
Now you’re in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let’s hear it for New York, New York,
New York

One hand in the air for the big city
Streetlights, big dreams, all lookin’ pretty
No place in the world that could compare
Put your lighters in the air
Everybody say “Yeah, Yeah. Yeah, Yeah”

New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There’s nothin’ you can’t do
Now you’re in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let’s hear it for New York, New York,
New York

Reamonn – Supergirl

You can tell by the way, she walks that she’s my girl,
You can tell by the way, she talks she rules the world.
You can see in her eyes that no one is her Chi,
She’s my girl, my Supergirl.

And then she’d say: It’s OK, I got lost on the way
But I’m a Supergirl and Supergirls don’t cry.

And she’d say: It’s all right, I got home late last night
But I’m a Supergirl and Supergirls just fly.

And then she’d say, that nothing can go wrong,
When you’re in love, what can go wrong?
And then she’d laugh the night turns into the day,
Pushing her fears further along.

And then she’d say: It’s OK, I got lost on the way
But I’m a Supergirl and Supergirls don’t cry.

And she’d say: It’s all right, I got home late last night
But I’m a Supergirl and Supergirls just fly.

Then she’d shout down the line, tell me she’s got no more time
Cause she’s a Supergirl and Supergirls don’t cry.
And then she’d scream in my face, tell me to leave, leave this place
Cause she’s a Supergirl and Supergirls just fly.

She’s a Supergirl, a Supergirl,
She’s sowing seeds, she’s burning trees,
She’s sowing seeds, she’s burning trees,
Yes, she’s a Supergirl, a Supergirl,
A Supergirl, my Supergirl.

The Temper Trap – Love Lost

Extremely good and refreshing video! ;)

Our love was lost
And now we found, it
Our love was lost
And hope was gone

Our love was lost
But now we found, it
And if you flash your heart
I won’t deny it

I promise
(I promise)

Your walls that run
To cold to touch, yeah
Your walls I rub
To hard to climb

I know its hard
But I can still hear it beating
So if you flash your heart
I won’t mistreat it

I promise
(I promise)
(I promise)

Our, love, was lost
In the rumor around the things
You, You’ve been dreaming of
Keep me in mind
When your ready
I am here
To take you every-time

Our love was lost
Lost
Lost
Lost
Lost
Lost
Lost
Lost
Our love was lost
But now it’s found

My Lucky Number 7 [EN]

After being dared by my favorite Morko in a post of his, I decided to prove once again that I have an excellent music taste.

I will do that by creating a special list putting a lot of efforts and a spoon of good memories in its creation. An extraordinary and precious list containing the seven albums I would take on a desert island with me

it is important to keep in mind that you should not just include your favorites for the moment, but music that has passed the test of time and that you could listen to for at least another 10 years…

Now that is what I call a ‘tough job‘.. so many great artists, albums and song.. How the hell can I restrict myself to only 7 albums?! Only if they were albums which I created myself during the years, playlists from my MP3-Player or some total favorites for life… But No, rules are rules, have to be followed..

It was still a great pleasure and even an honor to select My Lucky Number 7.. I made that choice rather quickly, without having second thoughts or reconsidering my choice. Who knows, that may lead to some corrections in time..:)

(That was what I wrote more than 2 years ago, but now when I decided to translate the article, I still feel the same way, just can add some extra albums like most by Coldplay, Greg Laswell etc., but definitely cannot remove anyone of those stated beneath…;))

So here they are – My Top 7 Albums, which I would take with me on a desert island, my 7 little music treasures:

1) Madonna – Ray of light

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All the best by Madonna gathered in one – this is what this album represents for me.. I cannot chose one single song that I favorite the most.. Ray of Light, Nothing Really Matters, The Power of Good-bye, Drowned world (Substitute for love), Frozen, Candy Perfumed girl, Little star, Mer Girl…. simply Madonna ..

2) Ace of base – The Bridge

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Ever since I was a short, skinny, approximately 10-years-old girl, I was singing their song all the time in my room, knowing by heart every single one from this album. I had and played that tape millions of times, with and without any special reason. I was so obsessed, that I put a poster of the album cover on my door… I was so crazy about them.. ;)

  1. Beautiful Life
  2. Never Gonna Say I’m Sorry
  3. Lucky Love (Original Version)
  4. Edge of Heaven
  5. Strange Ways
  6. Ravine
  7. Perfect World
  8. Angel Eyes
  9. Whispers In Blindness
  10. My Déjà Vu
  11. You and I
  12. Wave Wet Sand
  13. Que Sera
  14. Just ‘N’ Image
  15. Lucky Love (Acoustic Version)”
  16. Experience Pearls
  17. Blooming 18

3) Chicane – Behind the Sun

When I was younger, back at the time when I still didn’t have my favorite MP3-Player (which I feel naked without right now), I was playing Chicane on my stereo and was falling asleep under the sounds of Offshore and Saltwater now those were some sweet dreams :) )

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4) Madonna – Music

A little more different sound by Madonna. My favorites are What it feels like for a girl, Beautiful Stranger, American Pie, Music and Don’t tell Me.

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5) City of Angels OST

I downloaded the soundtrack of the ‘City of Angels’ movie after watching it for dozen times and they all immediately became unbreakable part of my MP3-Player and of my Total Favorites for Life Folder… Those are Alanis Morisette - Uninvited, Goo Goo Dolls – Iris, U2 – If God Will Send His Angels, Sarah McLachlan – Angel, Paula Cole – Feelin’ Love. I also have to mention Gabriel Yared, who has 4 unforgettable tracks in it…

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6) Cafe del Mar Vol.5 (1998)

I was hesitating between few volumes of Cafe del mar, but Vol.5 from ’98 is definitely outstanding among all with its obvious uniqueness and different sound. Attention deserve most tracks like Mumbai Theme Tune, More Than Ever People, Appreciation (Radio Mix), Tout Est Bleu (Original Ame Strong S.A. Remix), Talking With Myself ’98 (Canny Remix) !!! and most of all Close Cover by Wim Mertens!

Simply Inspiring!

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7) Enigma - Love Sensuality Devotion - Greatest Hits

Last but not least, this album by my favorite Enigma I will leave without a comment, because I had already said what it means to me in another article (only in BG unfortunately).

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Beastie Boys – Body Movin (Fatboy Slim Remix)

“Ready one, you will do this four times with the left
four with the right then eight times with both, then repeat”

Ah..clap your hands..

Body movin’ body movin’
A1 sound in the town so soothing
Body movin’ body movin’
We be getting down and you know we’re crush groovin’

Now let me get some action from the back section
We need body rockin’ not perfection
Let your back bone flip but don’t slip a disc
And let your spine unwind just take a risk
I wanna’ do the freak until the break of dawn
Tell me party people is that so wrong
The ship is docking inter-lockin
And up-rockin’ electro-shocking
We’re getting down computer action
Do the robotic satisfaction
Now all of y’all ah get off the wall
Have a ball and get involved with

Body movin’ body movin’
A1 sound’ sound so soothing
Body movin’ body movin’
We be getting down and you know we’re crush groovin’

“Stand erect, arms down. Swing left arm big same with the right”

Flame on, I’m gone
I’m so sweet like a nice bon bon
Came out rapping when I was born
Mom said rock it ’til the break of dawn
Puttin bodies in motion ’cause I got the notion
Well like Roy Cormier with the coconut lotion
The sound of the music makin’ you insane
You can’t explain to people this type of mind frame
And like a bottle of Chateau Neuf Du Pap
I’m fine like wine when I start to rap
We need body rockin’ not perfection
Let me get some action from the back section

Body movin’ body movin’
A1 sound in the town so soothing
Body movin’ body movin’
We be getting down and you know we’re crush groovin’

“Left arm ready and one, and again, stand erect”

Mike D huhaa with the master plan
I said ooh my my and thank you ma’am
And when I grab the mic you scream ooh, uh, excuse me
The creme de la creme is who I am
MCA where have you been
Packed like sardines in the tin..tin
So kick off your shoes and put on your swim fins
‘Cause when it comes to quarries I’m known to swim
And Adrock light up the place
And if you pull my card you pull the ace
And if you ask me turn up the bass
And if you play defender I could be your hyper space so

Body movin’ body movin’
A1 sound in the town so soothing
Body movin’ body movin’
We be getting down and you know we’re crush groovin’

“You will do eight hops on the left, eight on the right
Four left four right, two left, two right, the one each
Left right, left right. Start and land on the balls of the feet
Left foot, ready it’s one two three four five”

Chicane – Come Tomorrow

Crazy video! Never seen it before, but… I love it! :)

The song… is amazing, different, a total favorite for life of mine, no surprises – Chicane after all..:)

If I talked to god he’d tell me why
There’s something going on
Dark people walking by
This morning is the day after the next
Escape my only dream
Cos I’m the only one again

But life is better spent inside your world
Butterfly that sings
Causes me to fall once more
Tomorrow you are only half a friend
Machines control your mind
And neon strips above my head

Come tomorrow, come tomorrow
There’s never been an answer
There’s always someone else to follow
And you are coming down, and you are coming down
Giving me the reasons for your lies

And when you turn me inside out
Don’t know what you feel or dream about
And then you take me upside down
Remember my face, my name, my town

When i think of god he knows my mind
I’m wondering what’s wrong
What will the devil find
Tomorrow you will find there’s no way out
With nowhere left to turn
There’s no place left to hide from him

In a city made of sand
We found our way out
But without a helping hand
We’re free

Turn me inside out
Don’t know what you dream about
Take me upside down
Take me, take me
And you turn me inside out
Don’t know what you dream about

Mew – Comforting Sounds

С тази песен и всичко, с което я свързвам започва истинското ново начало при мен. Този fresh start, за който нямах смелостта, волята и дори желанието допреди известно време…настъпи. И ме кара да се чувствам толкова дяволски добре, толкова спокойна, уверена, на мястото си… (тук последва една дълга облекчаваща въздишка :) )

Готова съм отново да бъда щастлива! И да следвам този любим цитат от един тотален мой фаворит, който май ми е станал нещо като мото:

“Do the things that you always wanted to… Don’t think, Just DO!”

I don’t feel alright in spite of these comforting sounds you make.
I don’t feel alright because you make promises that you break.
Into your house, why don’t we share our solitude?
Nothing is pure anymore but solitude.
It’s hard to make sense, feels as if I’m sensing you through a lens.
If someone else comes, I’d just sit here listening to the drums.
Previously I never called it solitude.
And probably you know all the dirty shows I’ve put on.
Blunted and exhausted like anyone.
Honestly I tried to avoid it.
Honestly.
Back when we were kids, we would always know when to stop.
And now all the good kids are messing up.
Nobody has gained or accomplished anything

DJ Tiësto feat. Nelly Furtado – Who Wants To Be Alone

I was waiting for you to notice me
I’ve been hanging around for a minute
Baby don’t give me you it won’t hurt me
I don’t even know if you deserve me

But with that moon in the sky
Who wants to be alone

And when the stars shine so bright
Who wants to be alone

Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up
till the sun comes up
Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up
Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up
Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up

Right next to me
You wanna be
Till the sun comes up

I am going nowhere in a hurry
Baby come take away all my worries

But with that moon in the sky
Who wants to be alone
And when the stars shine so bright
Who wants to be alone

Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up
Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up
Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up
Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up

Right next to me
You wanna be
Til the sun comes up

I’m out of my head
I’m out of my head
I’m out of my head
I’m out of my head
I’m out of my head…

But with that moon in the sky
Who wants to be alone
And when the stars shine so bright
Who wants to be alone

Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up
Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up
Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up
Don’t take me home
Til the sun comes up till the sun comes up

Right next to me
You wanna be
Til the sun comes up

Whitney Houston – My Love is Your Love

(clap your hands, ya’ll it’ alright) (4 times)

If tomorrow is a judgment day (sing mommy)
And I’m standin’ on the front line
And the Lord ask me what I did with my life
I will say I spent it with you

If I wake up in World War 3
I see destruction and poverty
And I feel like I want to go home
It’s okay if you comin’ with me

(clap your hands, ya’ll it’s alright) (4 times)

‘Cause your love is my love
and my love is your love
It would take an eternity to break us
And the chains of Amistad couldn’t hold us (2 times)

(clap your hands, ya’ll it’s alright) (2 times)

If I lose my fame and fortune
And I’m homeless on the street
And I’m sleepin’ in Grand Central Station
It’s okay if you’re sleepin’ with me

(clap your hands, ya’ll its alright….) (2 times)

As the years they pass us by
we stay young through each others eyes
And no matter how old we get
It’s okay as long as I got you babe

(clap your hands, ya’ll it’s alright) (2 times)

‘Cause your love is my love
and my love is your love
It would take an eternity to break us
And the chains of Amistad couldn’t hold us (2 times)

If I should die this very day
Don’t cry, cause on earth we wasn’t meant to stay
And no matter what people say
I’ll be waiting for you after judgment day

‘Cause your love is my love
and my love is your love
It would take an eternity to break us
And the chains of Amistad couldn’t hold us (2 times)

My Top 10 Albums and Songs for 2009 [EN]

It is time to draw the line.

I was searching around my music archives and I was listening to old, new, total hits, favorite collections, unique singles and there it is – my rating for Top albums and songs for 2009 is ready.

2009 was the year of Rediscovering of genres. The first one was salsa as music and dance. Afterwords – Jazz and the unforgettable voice of Stacey Kent, as well as my favorite one – Girl from Ipanema which you can find performed by numerous artists.

2009 was the year of male vocals. The year I fall in love with alternative rock, with Cris Martin and Coldplay, with Greg Laswell, Depeche Mode, Snow Patrol, The Fray and so many others I’ve published during the year.

A lot of total hits I discovered among soundtracks of some American serial movies. Others – from randomly downloaded albums, thirds – from friends who were kind enough to give me folders with tons of stuff to listen to and select of…

2009 was the year of many unique tracks. It was as well the year of ‘junk’ music. I am soon planning to write a post about ‘The worst most hideous and commercial songs ever‘ ..

In 2009 I realized that my ears are like ‘perforated‘ and for some time I feel a terrible irritation and intolerance and I am simply unable to listen to some tracks, performers and music styles…

In 2009 I didn’t manage to listen to classical music, but my appetite for new musical experiences is infinite, so … 2010 is ahead of me :) .

So there it is..
My Top 10 Albums and Songs for 2009 are:

ALBUMS:

1. Coldplay – Prospekt’s March (2008)

2. Coldplay – A Rush of Blood To The Head

3. Conjure one – Conjure One (2002)

4. Greg Laswell – Three Flights From Alto Nido

5. Angels Chill Trance Essentials – Vol.1, Vol.2 & Vol.3

6. Enigma – Love Sensuality Devotion: The Greatest Hits

7. Lady Gaga – The fame monster (2009)

8. Tiesto – Gold Remixes (2008)

9. Miro – Omirotvoren (2009)

10. Madonna – Ray Of Light (1998)


SINGLES/SONGS:

1. Depeche Mode – Freelove

2. Seal – Crazy

3. Roxette – I wish I could fly

4. The Fray – How to save a life

5. Snow Patrol – Chasing Cars

6. Various Artists – Perfect Day

7. Kings Of Leon – Use Somebody (Pete Tong & Roger Wonderland Mix)

8.  Jonny Blu – Girl from Ipanema

9. Stacey Kent – I’ve got a crush on you

10. Damien Rice – 9 Crimes

Paul Van Dyk ft. Vega 4 – Time Of Our Lives (Pop Radio Mix)

I love this song… It’s inspiring!

Every time when I listen to it, I feel a little bit more prepared and almost able to do all the things I want to but don’t have the guts to do.

It reminds me of the lyrics from another favorite song: “Do the things that you always wanted to… Don’t think, Just Do...”. I heard it for the first time around 3 years ago but I still remember those words every time when I need the courage to act..and not just stand aside and let things slip away…

I sometimes need this push, this reminder of how I should just live, have the time of my life, do everything I wouldn’t usually dare, because the time of our lives is too great and too short to waist it…

This is why I love this song…

Oh, this is the time of our lives (4x)

There’s a time for us to let go
There’s a time for holding on
A time to speak, a time to listen
There’s a time for us to go

There’s a time for living low down
There’s a time for getting high
A time for peace, a time for violence
A time to live, a time to die

Oh, this is the time of our lives (4x)

A time to scream, a time for silence
A time for truth against the lies

There is a time for mixed-believing
There’s a time to understand

Oh, this is the time of our lives (8x)

Sia – Buttons (Jimmy Vallance Remix)

I know this song for some time, but this particular Remix by Jimmy Vallance turned out to be quite quite good and reminded me why I still like listening to Dance music.

This track is part of “The Ultimate Dance Top 100 Vol 3″ which I started listening to yesterday and I already found a lot of good tracks.

Keep tuned for more of it. ;)

Walk away from me lover

Walk away from me lover

Walk away from me lover

Walk away from me lover

You got me turning all the lights on and off
Walk away from me lover
Away from me lover

When will you see that I am carrying this stuff
Walk away from me lover
Away from me lover

Can’t you see that I am losing my marbles
It’s marvellous losing another
Losing another

Yes
I can see that your carpet is animated
Walk away from me lover
Away from me lover

I am no good for you
I’m seeing ghosts in everything I do

I am no good for you
I’m seeing ghosts in everything I do
Oh [x4]

I am no good for you
I’m seeing ghosts in everything I do

I am no good for you
I’m seeing ghosts in everything I do
Oh
Oh
Oh
Oh

Oh [x8]

Oh [x8]

Oh [x8]

Oh [x8]

Oh [x8]

Walk away from me lover

Walk away from me lover

Walk away from me lover

Armin van Buuren feat. Jaren – Unforgivable

You used to light up the dark
With your unrelenting spark
It always put a fire in me

You used to say I’m the one
The only ray of sun you could touch
Without a fear of burning

Well you used to try to please me
Yeah you used to try to please me

Never said this would be easy
Never said this would be easy

What are you telling her now
While you hold her in you arms
Are you pretending she’s me?

And just how long will you go on
Before you realize you know she’s
The one but you’re gonna lose her anyway?

You just got there now you’re leaving
You just got there now you’re leaving

Well it ain’t over till it’s over
And my world shuts down
But this comes close, I’ll have you know
It’s just a matter of time

But it ain’t over till it’s over
But I won’t be made a fool
Cuz leaving me the way you did was just so

Unforgivable [x6]

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